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iloveyouxx March 17th

hey there :D hm. last time I checked you didnā€™t look like mešŸ§makes sense doesnā€™t itšŸ˜›since there can only be one *me*āœØone of a kind now arent IšŸ˜/sar. one out of 8118835999āœØšŸŒ·can you imagine :0 o right- you can- becoss youā€™re also one of a kindšŸ’– sorrysorry haha :PšŸ¤im just messing around xDšŸ’žalso itā€™s 2am- but shush no snitchingšŸ¤«Iā€™ll sleep in a whilešŸ˜when Iā€™m feeling a bit more sane :>šŸ˜›šŸ©·

wanted to have my own space.šŸ’œ for thoughts feelings vents or just anything on my mind.šŸ’™

to whoever'sĀ coming acrossĀ :'3šŸ’œplease dont lurk here.šŸ©· I know anyone can have access to this forumĀ :')šŸ’™but please be respectfulšŸ©·.(but honestly..I know someone will either way :PšŸ’› yā€™all get crazy nosy haha- itā€™s alright.šŸ’›nothing too interesting will be here anywayšŸ’›if you would like to come in and be supportive itā€™s completely okiešŸ’›but please donā€™t make it a regular or "normal" thing if that makes sense. just have a sort of limitšŸ’›because Iā€™d still like this to be just my space ^-^šŸ’›)

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iloveyouxx OP November 8th

yh I never submitted itĀ 

it wonā€™t accept responses anymore either and now it says the forms not found cause like ofc a couple of hours past

oh wellā€¦Ā 


iloveyouxx OP November 8th

today was a half day- at school cause well itā€™s a half day every friday I just felt like mentioning it now

i had a horrible day but today I got home and I was home alone my brother was out with his friends my grandparents are supposed to be over but itā€™s complicated and my dads at workĀ 

and I donā€™t know why but. instead of like just not doing anything and sleeping or something because yeah that is what I do when Iā€™m home aloneĀ :') I got so much done- like you donā€™t get how messy my bag is. itā€™s a school bag could it really be that bad no itā€™s horrible and the things Iā€™ve found in there like thatā€™s scary my bag is scary why do I have-Ā :')

I organized some of my wardrobe and my room

and yk this might not seem like a lot but I also um- fixed my pencil case ;-; my pencil case is scary too. Ā no but itā€™s really scary in there. I was performing surgeryĀ 

my heart idk how to explain it like I was anxious but I also kind of felt calm nd peacefulĀ 

(also yeah I did poof for like 2 hours I donā€™t even remember what distracted me)

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slowdecline48 November 9th

@iloveyouxx "poof" for 2 hours? That means...?

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iloveyouxx OP November 9th

@slowdecline48

poof means like disappear or vanish without context (depends) so

The term "poof" in this context is a playful or humorous way to describe something disappearing or vanishing quickly, almost as if it were magical. When someone says, they are likely saying they're going to leave suddenly or disappear without warning, in a lighthearted or exaggerated manner.

Itā€™s similar to saying, ā€œIā€™m going to vanishā€ or ā€œIā€™m going to make my exit,ā€ but with a fun, whimsical twist. It can also be used in a self-deprecating or joking way, implying an almost magical or effortless disappearance.


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slowdecline48 November 9th

I thought you meant, like, mentally "disappeared"...spaced out for two hours or something.

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iloveyouxx OP November 9th

@slowdecline48

mm yeah that too

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iloveyouxx OP November 8th

today was short tho so Iā€™m gonna talk about a lil

(I gave up and deleted everything but- but! ..idk.)

iloveyouxx OP November 10th

ā€¦

iloveyouxx OP November 10th

Iā€™m sorry but how does me venting go from triggering the crisis resource to it looks like ive issued an illegal request.Ā 

bro.

no okay

i wrote a really really long post

i had to go so I went to click post and I was gonna finish it later but it triggered the crisis resource thing so I saved it

after that point I only continued talking about that for a while then I switched topics and went over everything to make sure like there were no crisisy wordsĀ 

and this whole other page pops up like leaving cups and itā€™s likeĀ 

400.Ā Thatā€™s an error.

Your client has issued a malformed or illegal request.Ā Thatā€™s all we know.

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iloveyouxx OP November 10th

btw I donā€™t actually know what itā€™s saying like idk what Iā€™m saying

but Iā€™m being serious I didnā€™t even say anything bad. I didnā€™t even say smth like ā€œIā€™m gonna k.msā€ or anything like thatĀ 

you wanna know what I was talking about. school drama. and yeah there were some fights but the only words I used were ā€œjumpingā€ ā€œjumpedā€ and ā€œpunchedā€Ā 

okay to be fair. it was mostly school drama but hereā€™s the twĀ 

ā€œTW very triggering I totally wouldnā€™t read/j/jĀ 

(no but in all seriousness ummm TW grape, abuse, idk violent language? is that a term, ed, does- like- school violence count. like people getting jumped and punched and school drama and stuff. uhhhmmm. caps? anxiety? I donā€™t remember. cursingā€¦.a lot of itā€¦I know I never put a trigger on it but what if someone realizes those three * next to each other trigger them too.. my dads still talking bad about me okay bye xD)ā€

but.Ā 

now I just seem stupid but really it wasnā€™t that badā€¦

like when I say grape I was just like I wasnā€™t talking about it I just said the word but the word doesnā€™t get censoredĀ 

I donā€™t even think I mentioned abuse

and by violent language itā€™s like the excessive cursing kind of

ed is just me talking about something Iā€™ve been through but Iā€™ve checked nothing should be triggering a censorĀ 

caps idekĀ 

anxiety was me talking about panic attacks for like 2 seconds

im tired. I wanted to be able to post thatĀ 

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iloveyouxx OP November 11th

in englishĀ 

iloveyouxx OP November 11th

today wasā€¦too much

iloveyouxx OP November 13th

I went to nurse

iloveyouxx OP November 13th

three times.

its history now (last lesson of the day) nd they didnā€™t let me go home

iloveyouxx OP November 14th

Ā hello there. :>In an arabic exam

I guess eveyrthing. Itā€™s multiple choice Iā€™m being serious Iā€™m trying to understand but I canā€™t I havenā€™t learnt anything Ā idk any of it but pretending like Iā€™m writing Iā€™m good at thatĀ 

Itā€™s on a site I havenā€™t submitted yet

i can soo easily cheat right now but Iā€™d rather just look dumb I donā€™t wanna stay in this set

nd how dumb I am like the average for our class is even worse and weā€™re one of the highest sets thatā€™s why Iā€™m not movingĀ 

I guessed in like a pattern xD for all the questions. I wonder how high Iā€™ll get from guessing.Ā 

I know I can get better like yeah my teacher sucks like a lot but idk I canā€¦go on duolingo or smth and when she is trying to teach I can understand better but tbh she makes me justĀ 

idk.

anyways.

Its 8:37 nd we finish at 9:05Ā 

then we have science.Ā 

I hate scienceĀ 

arabic and science theyā€™re the worst for me

nd I have scienceĀ 

4 times a week

arabic 3 times a week

idk which I hate more

theyā€™re both so bad in similar aspectsĀ 

like

people.

seating plan

the teacher

I hate being there sm like being there

anyways idk what Iā€™m gonna do I finished too earlyĀ 

a kid from my year 7 class just walked in asking for a laptop charger.Ā 

he moved classes before year 8

i kind of forgot about him. this makes me feel so weirdĀ 

my pen exploded in my bag everythingā€™s so messy TT

I look awful.

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iloveyouxx OP November 14th

guessed everything* Iā€™m on low brightness sorry if there are other mistakesĀ 

alsonthis kid wonā€™t stop staring T me itā€™s scaryĀ 

I never zone out looking at people I donā€™t trust my environmentā€¦ :p

anyways

i got 5/30!!!


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