in the wonders of my mind💗.
hey there :D hm. last time I checked you didn’t look like me🧐makes sense doesn’t it😛since there can only be one *me*✨one of a kind now arent I😁/sar. one out of 8118835999✨🌷can you imagine :0 o right- you can- becoss you’re also one of a kind💖 sorrysorry haha :P🤍im just messing around xD💞also it’s 2am- but shush no snitching🤫I’ll sleep in a while😁when I’m feeling a bit more sane :>😛🩷
wanted to have my own space.💜 for thoughts feelings vents or just anything on my mind.💙
to whoever's coming across :'3💜please dont lurk here.🩷 I know anyone can have access to this forum :')💙but please be respectful🩷.(but honestly..I know someone will either way :P💛 y’all get crazy nosy haha- it’s alright.💛nothing too interesting will be here anyway💛if you would like to come in and be supportive it’s completely okie💛but please don’t make it a regular or "normal" thing if that makes sense. just have a sort of limit💛because I’d still like this to be just my space ^-^💛)
I wanna talk about something serious I did but idk if I should because it’s so…serious. that if anyone that knows me irl finds out my life might just be ruined
idk how I did it
it’s not bad as in illegal just
im 14
barely
idk I shouldn’t have but I couldn’t and I felt like it
I’m making it sound really bad T^T but it’s not bad as in you should stop talking to me bad it’s bad as in I’m so sorry you felt the need to do that bad like it shouldn’t have been that bad for me to the point where I couldn’t not do it
…..
yeah you get it/j it makes sense
and I’m gonna do it again.
okay I’m back to talking about it
im only gonna do it when- I really feel the need to
next week.
incase it sounds like it it’s not anything like vaping/smoking etc I’ll never do any of that- no judgement it’s just not for me ? xD
I really wanna talk about it but I’m scared 😭 I’m gonna wait in a queue at this point I’ll yap about it to some random newbie listener idk
anywho I’m gonna stop talking about it.
I would’ve been in…music. right now. awww I kinda like music
I’m so sick I was gonna try to come today (not that I wanted to-) and I even set an alarm and had everything ready but I couldn’t and now I’ve been lying down all day and I got up once to get medicine
ive been sleeping all day too. you’re supposed to like heal in your sleep or something why am I so sick
I would’ve been omw home right now
I’m tired but I’m not ..after school tired and it feels weird because I guess now I’m used to it
I actually did wait in the queue and I actually did get a newbie listener
I kid you not I genuinely sent over 100 pms or something
they seemed sweet I’m just really sure they couldn’t understand what I was saying
um to put it into perspective when I was talking about getting graped they went “Whyy”
and other than that the only thing they replied to was halfway through the rant I went sorry brb and they were like it’s okayyy
and then I said I’m sorry for dumping so much on you and etc etc and
it’ss gettingg
really really bad
idk what to do
but shut off and do it again and again and not be able to talk about it until it drives me insane