a place for galactictroubles to write their galactic troubles (all replies welcome)
This is honestly just an online diary and a place for me to ramble whenever I feel like it. Replies are welcome but I do not expect people to reply. There could be possible trigger warnings but I am not sure at this point.
April 15
Day 34
Feeling a little nervous. Sometimes I just want to start all over. Just get a fresh start on life. I think that would be nice. A chance to redo and undo all the mistakes I made. I'm feeling tired. Emotionally drained but a bit physically too. It's not very fun. I don't know how to fix it because I don't know why I'm emotionally drained. I don't know how to not feel emotionally drained.
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April 16
Day 35
I'm scared. I'm feeling scared and lonely. And empty. I don't know why. I'm getting overwhelmed really easily all of a sudden. I can't do simple things. I can't even respond to a text. I'm overthinking it. I'm overthinking everything but I can't stop overthinking. I can't respond but I want to talk so I feel lonely. I think it's a cycle. And now I just feel guilty for not responding but I'm just overthinking my response. This sucks. I hate this. I hate this so much.
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@galactictroubles *sitting with you*
Sometimes it helps to hear these words and to imagine that someone is sitting there with you. If you feel like talking - thats fine or we can sit in the quiet together
I overthink things alot too. I over think everything - things I post - replies to people - even this too will be over thought because I worry maybe I'm invading.
I just don't want you to feel alone
Be gentle with yourself and your thoughts
@mytwistedsoul
thank you for sitting with me :)
Your words were helpful, and they made me feel less alone. Overthinking really sucks, but having someone that can pull you out of your own head really helps. Overthinking often feels like I'm trapped inside my own head, and makes me go crazy. But knowing that someone is there for me is helpful, thank you :)
@galactictroubles You're welcome. :)
It makes me feel trapped to and then it's allmost like it grows - the over thinking. Like it starts out as a big blob but there are these tendrils that venture out and it just spreads until it consumes everything. Thats one of the nice things about here - being able to reach out and have someone help get you out of your head alittle. Sometimes I distract with music or sometimes it helps to write out what it is we're over thinking. Sort of like it give us a different perspective when we can see the words written down and helps get it out of our heads. I hope you're feeling alittle better today
April 18
Day 37
Everything feels so quiet. It snowed overnight, so now everything is bright again. It was pretty strange that it snowed in April...since April is usually spring....things have already been pretty crazy this year, snow in April is the least of our problems. Everything feels quiet and snow. I feel like I have so much time. It's a good feeling. I don't think it's supposed to snow anytime soon after this. The snow is very pretty. Everything feels calm.
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April 19
Day 38
Today was pretty decent. Nothing happened but that's ok. The snow has all melted by now.
I like that the days are getting longer. One of my favorite things about spring/summer. I don't really like spring since I get pretty bad allergies, but at least the days are getting longer. I haven't had many problems with allergies this year. Because I've been staying I side. And when I go outside I just have a pill. Usually the pills don't last a whole school day for me, but they last long enough for a walk or whatever I'm outside for. The trees outside of my house are blooming, they're really pretty actually. They're right outside my window which is nice.
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April 20
Day 29
I don't know what to talk about. Nothing really happened today. Oh I reconnected with a friend I haven't spoken to in a while. That was fun. We had a good time just chatting. Other then that nothing really happened. It was a good day anyways :）
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April 21
Day 40
It's raining again. Not very heavy rain. Calming. I went for a walk today. I couldn't really describe it other than metallic silver. That's just how it felt and looked. Which is good, because my favorite color is silver. Today was a good day. I talked to a couple friends. School got cancelled for the rest of the school year. I'm not sure how I feel about that. I didn't want to go back anyways, but it also just feels strange, thinking about how I'm not going back to that building until next year. And the last time I was there, I didn't think it would be the last time I was there until next year. It's a weird feeling.
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April 22
Day 41
Today was interesting. I'm not sure how to describe it. I don't know what to write here. I didn't really do anything today anyways. Oh. Also my shoe got canceled. So that's not great.
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April 24
Day 43
I'm feeling fine. I went for a walk. It was nice. It's kinda cold out but I like walking when it's chilly. Today was fine. Nothing great but nothing horrible. Not a lot happened. I'm fine with that thought. I would rather nothing happen than something bad happen.
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April 25
Day 44
Im not sure why but I've been feeling mildly panicked all day. Not enough to make me have a breakdown or anything, but it's just kinda there. Looming over or something. I don't know if it's all going to build up and crash down, I've just been trying to ignore it. Hopefully it goes away tomorrow or soon. I don't know what caused it.
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