a place for galactictroubles to write their galactic troubles (all replies welcome)
This is honestly just an online diary and a place for me to ramble whenever I feel like it. Replies are welcome but I do not expect people to reply. There could be possible trigger warnings but I am not sure at this point.
April 3
Day 22
Good day, I had some classes today and they all went well. I got to talk to a friend so that was pretty fun. Not a lot to say today either except the days feel like they're blurring together.
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April 4
Day 23
Why do I always feel so inadequate compared to others? No matter who it is I just feel lesser then them. I don't know why.
I feel like everyone secretly hates me and they're plotting against me or they all talk about me. I mean this isn't new I've just been thinking about it more since I've got plenty of time to do so. And I'm writing it down here because I can and I'm hoping that it would make me feel better. I feel a bit better now that I wrote it down. But yeah, that's all I wanted to write about.
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April 5
Day 24
I'm feeling a bit anxious for no reason.
Just random anxiety.
Yeah I'm not having a good time. And I don't know why this is happening I just guess it's happening now and I can't stop it.
But at least something exciting is happening tomorrow. So I can look forward to that instead of being anxious. Or I can at least try to be less anxious.
Anyways that's all.
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April 6
Day 25
Pretty good day. Went for a walk. Didn't do much else but it was still a good day relaxing.
Thats it haha.
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April 7
Day 26
I feel like everybody secretly hates me but they don't want to tell me.
I can't explain it that's it. I just feel like everyone hates me or is going to hate me. This is not fun. This is not happy. This is not something I want to be writing about but this is my current journal so I guess I can write whatever I want here. That's all. Goodnight.
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April 8
Day 27
I'm watching musical bootlegs and I'm feeling ok. Not as bad as yesterday but I feel shaky for no reason. I think because I'm hungry. I should get food. Nothing remarkable happened today but I honestly like that. :)
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April 9
Day 28
Feeling relaxed. It rained basically all day, with thunder and lightning. I actually kind of like the rain. I don't like being out in it, but listening to it is kind of relaxing. Even thunder is relaxing to me. I don't know why, but it was nice.
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@galactictroubles Hi there, glad the weather made you feel relaxed. Listening to rainfall/ thunder can be therapeutic and great for self care. Hope you are well, and have a nice weekend! :)
April 10
Day 29
Honestly? Right now I'm feeling inadequate. Just feeling like I'm not good enough. Watching other people be so talented, intelligent, you name it, it's just making me feel...not as good. I should probably stop. But I don't know how. I'm also hungry. But I should be having food soon. So that's one of my problems fixed.
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@galactictroubles Hey :)
Tbh - I feel that way alot of Times myself. Not smart enough or at least not as smart as most people. I doubt everything I do - everything I make - everything I say. We're often our own worst critics. But you know what - you are good enough - you are adequate - you're you. Allways be you - ya know? People will like the authenticity of you being you - instead of trying to be someone you're not.
Wow - that probably makes no sense - I hope you can understand what I'm trying to say. :)
April 13
Day 32
Its storming outside. The storm is pretty bad and it's windy. Forecast says "dangerously windy". Not like I was planning to go outside anyways. The lights keep flickering and going out, which is kind of annoying. Nothing has fallen on the house yet, which is good. It's supposed to continue for 4 more hours. Right now it's a bit calm, but the wind will probably start up again soon. I'm feeling not so good, and my stomach hurts.
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April 14
Day 33
Feeling pretty satisfied with myself today. Which is nice because it doesn't happen often. I'm listening to music and drinking something cold. It's good. I feel good. It's pretty sunny outside, very different from yesterday's storms and wind. It's interesting how the weather can do that, be so different so quickly. But I guess humans do that too.
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