Working on me, understanding me, all for me.
Hi, I'm Bailey. Last year, every month or so I would have one or two nights where I over thought things to the point of puking and I couldn't sleep until I basically passed out at 3 am. It was bad. And then I met him. And I would fall asleep to the thought of him. And I was happy. I also found more hobbies. My mom was home from work more, same with my dad. And then he stopped coming over. (He was friends with my sister that lived at home and that was like the only reason he came over, also because we were really nice to him.). Then another of my sisters moved back in after a breakup. Within 7 months I went from living in an apartment with my parents and 2 dogs to a small house with my 2 older sisters, my parents, the o.g. 2 dogs, and now my sisters dog. To make it better she moved in when my brother, his wife, and their 4 kids came to visit. My sister was constantly around! I was getting so frustrated/sad/anxious. But I still hadn't had "one of those nights" for about 4 months at that point. And then the sister that was friends with "him" moved out(that helped lots). So at this point I was at my lowest. He wasn't coming back(that triggered my "he's older than you" he lives to far away" "he doesn't like you" "he likes her" thinking). So then I was crying myself to sleep.
(I'll continue in this thread(I hope) if I can figure it out.