Thoughts for January 19, 2021:
Sometimes it is hard for me to pinpoint what is bothering me. Is it my Grandmother's death, my depression, or something deeper that has been eating at me for years? I think to myself "Why does it have to always be something that is bothering me? And how could I achieve pure happiness that I have been searching years for?" My longing to be just happy with nothing bothering me or upsetting me is something that I have longed for a long time now. I hope that some day I will be able to achieve what I have seen to be impossible for quite some time. That lingering of hope is what keeps me going. It is what keeps me from falling into failure. So today I keep on keeping on and tomorrow is a mystery.