My Journal✏🌎
Hello all! I hope your doing well <3
So I do have a personal journal I use a lot and I would love to share some things with you all!
Please feel free to comment ❤️
Trigger warnings: Swearing ( will add to this as more comes)
My first entry will be....* drum roll*
Sad Songs😔
1: Lie-NF
2: How Could You Leave Us-NF
3: If You Want Love-NF
4: Not Over You-Gavin Degraw
5: Hold On-Chord Overstreet
6: Sad Song-We The Kings
7: Love Is Gone-Slander
8: One Day-Tate Mcrae
9: That Way-Tate Mcrae
10: Be Alright-Dean Lewis
11: That Should Be Me-Justin Bieber
12: Forever-Lewis Capaldi
13: Love Me Or Leave Me-Little Mix
14: You Broke Me First-Tate Mcrae
15: Lie To Me-Tate Mcrae
16: What Hurts The Most-Rascal Flatts
17: I Loved Her First-Heartland
18: Before You Go-Lewis Capaldi
19: Traitor-Olivia Rodrigo
20: Easy On Me-Adele
21: You Are The Reason-Calum Scott
22: I Fall Apart-Post Malone
23: Let You Down-NF
24: 7 Years Remix-Sik World
25: Too Good At GoodByes-Sam Smith
26: Sissy's Song-Alan Jackson
27: Not Sober-The Kid Loroi
28: I'm Sorry-Lil Uzi Vert
29: You Should Be Sad-Halsey
30: Talking To The Moon-Bruno Mars
31: When I Was Your Man-Bruno Mars
32: It Will Rain-Bruno Mars
33: Yellow-ColdPlay
34: What If I Never Get Over You-Ryan Hurd
35: Wasting All These Tears On You-Cassadee Pope
36: Grenade-Bruno Mars
37: I'm Not The Only One-Sam Smith
38: Take On The World-You Me At Six
39: Us-James Bay
40: Happiest Year-Jaymes Young
41: It's You-Ali Gate
42: Holes In The Floor Of Heaven-Steve Wariner
43: Tomorrow-Chris Young
44: Don't Leave Her If You Can't Let Her Go-Chris Young
45: Empty-Olivia O'Brien
46: Wishing Well-Juice Wrld
47: I Miss You Daddy-NightCore
48: Break The Distance-Ashton Edminster
49: Without You-The Kid Laroi
50: Dancing In The Sky-Dani And Lizzy
51: Let Her Go-Passenger
52: Baby Don't Cut-B-Mike
53: Lonely And Worthless-Eminem
54: Suicide Letter-Jdot Breezy
55: Hate Me-Doobie
56: Dive-Ed Sheeran
@babydino69
Some good songs on here, Lies is just 💓
KyleBorg, Global Moderator & Teen Community Star
@KyleBorg
Thanks Kyle. ily ( platonically ) ❤️
Distant poem...
this is a poem I wrote and does contain a swear weird and the word " cut and blood" so be careful and read at your own risk!!
Run....Run from my thoughts and hide from the constant voices in my head
Keep my problems @ a personal stage
Doesn't let anyone in...they'll only use me...
Step into this girls shoes...see what I and us girls go thru..
Hear what we hear in our heads..
Nothing fights us more than ourselves..
Feeling broken...no where to hide..
They say they care..as much as I want to..I just can't believe them
I look in the mirror..waiting for it to break
the scars that cover my body,you never ask about
I need help but I'm afraid to ask...too much to explain...rather not have it thrown back in my face..
You'll always get " Nothin" or " I'm fine" from me...
Do you ever wonder if that's a lie? DId you ever think maybe she's ( I) hurting?
I wanna cut...til I gush blood because that's the only escape.
Nope,you never did...NEVER..
You ignored it...ignored it all including my constant sorry's for YOUR MISTAKES..
But one day...one day she'll ( me) disappear and regret will eat you alive..
Do you see now? She's distant..
Why? Because of the pain you put this girl who loved you unconditionally thru..
So screw you and remember...remember always...you made her D I S T A N T
So today's journal writing will be about a boy named tyler...
He is my best friend and I may or may not be in love with him.....❤️😞
On November 12th,2020 I met a boy named tyler on facebook. He is a trans ( ftm) boy from washington. We played 20 questions to get to know each other and I also got a few pics of him. I was like " Damn he's hot and from that game seems to have an amazing personality" He asked for a pic of me then replied back " oh damn you fine shawty" My mind was like ahhhh fuck he called me shawty. We stopped talking for the night because I went to bed.
The next day we had our first facetime even tho I was shy asf. we ended up sleeping on facetime. ikr sooo cute. As days went on we kept talking. One day I asked him flat out to be my best friend he said yesss! I was so happy. I put him in my bios,we had platonic nicknames for eachother. Mine: Pumpkin and his princess. His: My Prince and monkey boo. We posted abt each other. I even got good morning/goodnight paragraphs from him. He truly made me happy and still to this day ( 3-12-22) he does. I get people say " oh your best friends cant be hundreds or even millions of miles away" But it's not about the distance. it's about the love. Like yes we may be 2,717.4 miles apart but I dont care,that doesnt change anything. We plan to break the distance next summer. I love him. Yes we have hurt each other but we learned from that. In the end it's him. Always has. Always will. He also stopped me self harming. He gave me a reason to me alive. I struggled thru so much yet he was always there holding my hand thru every bit of it. He protected me from anyone and anything.
Well January of 2020 is when I hardcore started catching feelings. No,at first I did not tell him. But not long after I told him. Unlike most he stayed after he found out and Started flirting with me...
To be continued because I'm not done writing this yet👍