My Intriguing Life (Probably not really)-Open to Replies
My thoughts have been blurry. I just dont understand. I go through a break up, I shut down. I am touch sensitive now, I dont know what happened to me. There has been zero trauma in my life unless you concider family fights and seeing my brother get arrested traumatic. A few nights ago, I heard my name called at close to 1 in the morning, I went to the hall and I was out of view, my brother was being arrested and he was taken to jail. The morning after, everything seemed faded and unreal. Then I snapped back to reality when my ex texted and him and I talked for a few hours (probably a bad idea) oh well. Sooooo much, oh, and Christmas. Yay! Supposedly. My mom is normally a Grinch during the Christmas season and ruins stuff for me so this year, I have been very anti-Christmas because I dont need her ruining it all for me
My ex, of all people. Decides to text me, he manipulated me and lied to me, may I say. He's a hypocrite for telling me to f*ck off and then texting me. Right? The worse part being that I miss him, I miss his soft touch, his welcoming voice, his loving hugs. I dont know, it's still a mess of a topic for me. Whenever I see him, I normally freak out because I dont know what to do. There was an assembly and my friend and I were walking out, we got near him and I freaked, so I grabbed onto my friend and got out as quick as possible. I hated the feeling that something would happen with him there. I hate that I'm worried because of him.
All dumb, I know. I'm just a dumb girl who fell head over heels for a dumb boy. Anyways, whoever is reading this, feel free to relpy to this. I dont care or mind<3
Alright, lazy day today, tomorrow is Christmas Eve and I want to push it far far away. This year, I'm not in a holiday mood so thats great. My house it not very "lit" as my brother would say, he put up lights in the house and it's so beautiful. I wish that I could have a real house for Christmas. This is now my second year in my trailer.
