My Diary (open to comments!)
Lately I've been feeling so bored with life. I have a great life, don't get me wrong, but I do a lot of stuff alone and I just wish I had someone to share it with. I recently got my driver's license, so I want to go places, but my friends are either too busy or can't find a way to meet me places. Not gonna lie, I'd really love to have a boyfriend. I'm not ugly, incredibly crazy, or anything else and I feel like I'd be a really good girlfriend. A lot of my friends think I'm crazy for being so bored with life and tell me to make my own fun, which I do, but I always see holes in my life where I could fill with other people. Am I crazy for wanting more? For being bored?
@brightMelon7624 I get this. I understand the feeling of just... dissatisfaction with my life. idrk know what to say I just wanted to say I understand?
@brightMelon7624
Hey--I think I get what you're saying. You already have some things that you're doing on your own, but you feel like there's something lacking or missing. And like it would help if you were able to have some connections with other people and feel accepted/understood by people.
So today I went dress shopping for the winter dance at our school. This is the second time I've gone and I haven't found anything and I'm getting pretty frustrated with both me for having a stupid body shape and just the fact that I have a date so I have to go. So I was talking to my friends about it and I guess I was being whiney because I said something along the lines of that if it wouldn't hurt my date to not go then I wouldn't (he'd be really disappointed if I cancelled) and they got really mad at me and told me I was being incredibly selfish and idk. I do so many things for the people around me, sometimes I just wish I could do something for myself. Like the dance is stressing me out so much and I think he's stressed too and I really do wish I could cancel, but I do realize that would be selfish. I just really really wish that I could cancel I guess and not have it being viewed as something selfish but as me trying to take care of myself better. Also I guess my friends telling me I am selfish just wasn't what I needed to hear at the moment.
