Makeup, jealousy, doubt and stress

Hey all. Apologies if ive done something wrong and/or posted this somewhere weird, I'm new to 7 cups.

I've actually been facing a challenge I never thought I would recently- makeup. I've never really been a makeup girl. Much too busy and had no patience for it, but recently I've really gotten into the whole thing and actually started to really enjoy it!

That's the good part.

I'm now noticing that my skin never feels as healthy and a little rough nowadays and going out the house without makeup makes me feel unprepared for the world. I looked up how many days you should leave your skin bare and it said two days. That honestly feels really difficult :/

Jealousy links in with this I suppose. Ever since I met my girlfriend I've been wary of looking bad. I'm a dreadfully jealous person and I made the nasty mistake of looking through her Instagram and seeing her ex. She seems to be so pretty. And my god it makes me insecure. I'm not stupid...I can tell they're all her best pics with filters and a ton of makeup on her face [not dissing her there since I do that too nowadays} but it makes me feel sick. It of course was worse seeing my girlfriends old comments on her pics and stuff like that. I feel so unnatractive sometimes. It also makes me wonder if I'm learning how to do makeup for the wrong reasons. Or if I'm losing the old me. Its scary seeing that you're changing.

And to wrap that all up, I've been neglecting my studies and can't find any motivation whatsoever to study. I'm so stressed at sixth form and I hate the schedule. The atmosphere is less stifling than high school but at least the routine was good for me. It's difficult to "oh just go study" in my free periods when I have no motivation or "hang with your pals" when you're antisocial and have anxiety.

...and breath.

I think that's it. Thank you so much if you read this whole thing haha, I know it was a long rant.