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redWalker1776 December 3rd, 2020

I've been feeling low recently. I've tried to get help many different times.

I tried something new a few weeks ago and that was to accept myself for who I am but I feel nervous for the uncertainty. I want to be someone who is courageous and to be who I am. I don't know when it was when I began losing sight of who I am. But no, I was trying to find out the entire time, and now that I was able to, after running as fast I could, as the advice was, I feel that the expectations feel a bit consuming, the threads that came with that personal journey. I'm nervous about trying what is unknown, but I will start from the beginning again. I wonder if there are other people who have felt this way? I'm not really sure what to expect, but I'll do my best.

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Asher December 7th, 2020

Thanks for sharing that with us on here.

redWalker1776 OP December 9th, 2020

One more day until the break begins. I will not be taking the quick route and will get all that needs to be done in by tmr, just because, and I think I am capable of it. Last weekend, I practiced mindfulness and I'm been feeling wary and tired, but I'll keep on going to find out what is next for me. I'm excited, but really really sleepy.

redWalker1776 OP November 9th, 2021

11/9/21

It has been almost a year since the last post. I have discovered me and have made friends. I hope they are going to understand the strict construct of friendship as opposed to any sort of romantic endeavor.