A Space For The Unsaid (Personal Diary)
Uh hello if anyone is reading this! 😀
I have no idea why I'm even creating this thread but i just feel it will be nice to have a place to share some thoughts or even these images on the internet that i always keep saving for myself because i relate too much but cannot share it with anyone because yes haha
I'm okay with replies here so feel free to drop by anytime ❤️
Just please be kind and respectful if your replying to my posts.
It is exhausting feeling like a nobody.... i just... need someone permanent for once in my life ... someone telling g me they care and actually meaning it ... someone telling me they love me and actually meaning it ... someone telling me they'll stay and actually staying... ... is that too much to ask for ??? ... maybe *sigh*:/ :/
@Optimisticempath You are not a nobody <3 To me you are somebody and to one person you are everybody *-* I mean everything and that person is YOU ^-^ The moment that you realize that you are enough, you are worthy of love, that you are the most important person.. all the good words from others will be just extra confirmations of your awesomeness and the mean words will just be dried crumbled leaves that don't stand a chance against the powerful force that is You.
I understand what you means and I know it feels nice to have someone else that is there for you but sometimes in life we just have to walk alone for a while, doesn't mean it will always be that way. Presence or absence of someone in your life doesn't define your worth.
*Sends awesome people your way* :O Might take a little time so hold on till then, okay? :) <3
@BlueDarkAurora 🥺🥺🥺 this is really such a beautiful thing to say, thank you so so so much 💕
I'm really not surprised tho because as I always say, i love your perspective on things, it is vvv kind and loving 💕
it is hard yes and hard to believe too haha but I'll try 😅 *keeps holding on* thankyouu for reminding it means a lot!! 💕
You, Soul and some others here are really awesome people and I'm grateful to all of you so much also 💕
me woke up from an awful dream ... tried sleeping again but it came back ... or something very similar... was so descriptive and felt so real... loved one... hurt.... danger ..... loss... scary... very scaryyy..... lonely ...Idk..... hard .... feeling really anxious...meanie brain meanie meanie vvv ... more scary nuuuu 🥺🥺🥺🥺
please no scary .. I 😖
@Optimisticempath *offers coffee* may I sit with you? I'm sorry nightmares are bothering you 😞 getting rest shouldn't be so hard *hugs* ❤️ *sending good vibes and thoughts to to keep the fears away*
@mytwistedsoul *sits with you and hugs back tight* thankyou so much 🥺 ❤
@Optimisticempath You're welcome ❤️ How are you?
@mytwistedsoul I'm okie, better than that day thankyouu for being here ❤
how's you? ❤
@Optimisticempath I'm glad you're better - its ok to not be ok - ok? ❤️
This is a bad time of year - thank you for asking
I don't want you to feel you can't write here - if you want to that is. And you don't have to feel obligated to reply when I write either ok? Sometimes we just need that space and I understand that
*big hugs and good vibes to you OptiBear* ❤️
@Optimisticempath
aw thanks for the reminder can always use this one ❤
your so caring always and vvv gentle, I love it about you, thankyou for saying that ❤ I don't feel obligated or pressured in anyway to reply to you ❤ you're always kind to me and have a way of making my day so much better so I'm really just grateful I get to talk to you whenever we here ❤
If ok to ask, what makes this time bad? It must be so hard dealing with the same every year :( here for you too anytime you want to talk or share anything ❤ *big hugs and many good vibes back to you alsoo * 🤗
@Optimisticempath You're welcome ❤️ I guess I worry that I take up too much space in other people's space and I don't want to do that. Thank you - it's nice to know I can make your day better and that makes me smile *hugs* ❤️
There are trauma anniversaries around this time of year and they set off a bunch of things. Plus some SAD sets in - which adds to any depression. Just a hard time to be a twisted soul. Thank you - I appreciate it and you OptiBear ❤️ Be gentle with yourself and your thoughts ok? Got your helmet? 😉 Gotta keep that bean safe 😊❤️ *big hugs and good vibes on the way*
@mytwistedsoul
I Get that, it's so considerate of you ❤ you have full permission to take any space in my thread hehe anytime ❤
Aww *hugs back 🤗🤗
I'm so sorry to know it is an overall tough time for you with the anniversaries and depression hitting harder 🥺 please be vvvvvv gentle and patient with yourself too oki and take care of youuuu and remember me here wichuu 🥺❤ soul nuu alone and always welcome here
hehe yes me has helmet 😄 bean safe
*big huggies and good good vibes back*
@Optimisticempath Thank You ❤️ I hope you're being patient and gentle with yourself too 😊
You're a very sweet person Opti I hope the bad thoughts are leaving you alone. The helmet has magical powers for that ❤️
I love your gif! 😄 little dog tucks its self in for the night - either that or it's a very furry burrito lol! 😁 *hugs* ❤️
@mytwistedsoul Me sweet? Nuuu , you sweet soul, you always sweet to everyone ❤❤❤
Thankyouu, there's ups and downs , some days better others eh ... magical powers are nice 🥺❤ appreciate you vv much
you being kind and gentle with yourself too hmm?
*huggles*
@Optimisticempath I haven't allways been nice. I have been thoughtless and inconsiderate at times in the past 😞 I'm trying to do better
Those eh days are the hardest. Especially if they hit right after a good day. I'm sorry you're having eh and down days OptiBear I wish for you to have more up and better days ❤️
I wish I had more powerful magic for you
I'm trying pretty hard to be kind and gentle with myself but some days are harder. Thank you for asking ❤️
* the biggest hugs to you and the bestest vibes headed your way* much love to you OptiBear ❤️ ❤️
Really hope this isn't wrong to copy paste someone's words in chatroom here I just ... the words hit me too hard ... they were talking to someone else and this isnt for me but I relate lmao..... the depressive route they talking about?? The other person didnt take it but I did smh ... and I feel this is never ending and I am so stuck ... it makes my bad thoughts go insane and my brain gets more chances to be mean to me ... Idk anything anymore ... why is it so hardddddddddddddddddddddddddddd :/ :'(
But I also think that the worst mistake you could make would be to go the depressive route and simply do nothing
And then there are people who just shut down if they do the wrong things, who really NEED to figure it out in order to be functioning
@Optimisticempath When do we leave? Lol
@mytwistedsoul omg soul hahahah I am ready when you are 😁
@Optimisticempath
*singing row row row your boat* 😁
@mytwistedsoul ahahaha you find the best gifs LoL!😁😁 *sings together and rows forward*
@Optimisticempath Looks like something I'd do tbh 😁 I'm definitely not the most graceful being 😋
The effing dilemma smh 💀
@Optimisticempath :O sometimes if nobody wakes me up.. I believe I can sleep for years and years and would still need more sleep after waking up :O
Hahaha @BlueDarkAurora this cracked me 🤣 because same xD :O to sleep>>>>
@Optimisticempath :O yes XDD
@BlueDarkAurora how is you beautiful self doing? <3
how was your weekend?
@Optimisticempath Aw you are so sweet <3 ^-^ Everything is going well. Hope you are doing fine *-*
Hope you are enjoying every chapter of your life and hope the story keeps getting better and better with every page you turn. Don't get too stuck if it's a little hard to read through, something tells me that so many beautiful things and people awaits you <3
