Struggling with Grief
Hello, for the sake of not making this too lengthy of a post —
I am struggling to cope with the greatest loss I’ve ever experienced. It was inevitable, but I don’t know how to carry on without them. A huge part of my heart has been ripped from me and I have no will to keep moving forward. I’ve also struggled with depression for the majority of my life, and have also been on the wrong side of luck from as young as I can remember. Abandonment, trauma, abuse, anxiety…the list goes on. But this individual was the one that kept me going — gave me hope and reason to live. Now I have none. Everything is hopeless. The light has gone out in my world and I don’t see it coming back. My world has stopped since they’ve left, yet everyone around me keeps moving forward. I can’t keep moving forward without them. I’d rather just lay here until my time comes, when I can be with them again forever.
Sending love to all those who struggle with grief. I’m here to listen, should you choose to share.
@midniightsky They can still be the reason<3 Losing someone doesn't take away their memories and their love. You carry a part of their story and they'll always be there in your heart. I know these words don't mean much when the loss still feels so heavy but somedays we have to hold on to every little thing.
You can stay still, let your heart gather some strength before thinking about where to step next. Do it for the light they saw in you, I keep going for the memories and because I know they'd want to see me be happy. We're all far from happy but we can try and you're not alone while you try. I'm so sorry for the loss and for all that you've been through<3
Thank you for wanting to be there for someone who might need it<3
Thank you so much for your kind words, I really needed to hear that right now. Most days I try my best to navigate, all while still fighting the feeling of purposelessness. My motivation to keep going has disappeared, and then my mind takes a trip down memory lane to all of the happy moments we shared together… I know in my heart I’ll never feel that happiness again. Grief is so layered. We’re not just grieving the loss of our loved one, but the future we thought we had, the dreams we shared, all of the moments that could have been…
Thank you for listening and understanding, sending positive vibrations your way 🔆
@midniightsky <3 the way I can relate ^^ I wish I couldn't, I wish you didn't have to know the pain of it all but here we are :) just trying to survive. Thank you for the positive vibrations and I sending you the same.
