She was the love of my life

Almost two years ago I lost the mother of my son, my best friend, the love of my life, my soulmate. It only hit me recently, I couldn't understand why I suddenly lost interest in all the things I had distracted myself with over the years. Then the memories, the pictures, the songs and finally the emotions. We went through so much together and unfortunately due to the trauma and destruction of addiction we grew apart. We always had each other's hearts even when we were no longer together. We were once so deeply in love I cant remember how we got to this point. We both wanted to pick up the pieces and reclaim the love we once had. Unfortunately the addiction eventually claimed her life. The grief from her loss has been excruciatingly painful. At the time of her death I didn't feel anything I was numb. It finally dawned on me recently that the love of my life is gone. So many things I wanted to say, I'll never get the chance. Shouting at the sky waiting for an answer. I love and miss you so much. I'll never forget you, your memory endures with me. I'll carry you with me everywhere that I go. I love you forever! 😭💔