Loss of my grandma
on 2/16/22, my grandma died. Thankfully, I was able to travel back home and be with her when she took her last breath (she was on home hospice and went peacefully in her sleep after a quick decline). She was my favorite person in the whole world. She was my babysitter when I was young, she drove me to school when needed, she cooked for me and loved going out to dinner for one on one time. It was really tough on her (and me) when I moved away for work, but thankfully she was able to be at and participate in my wedding in August. That was the best gift I could have asked for.
Losing her has been hard, but in a weird way. I was there when she died and my heart knows she is gone, but my brain won’t allow me to process it. I did have a big breakdown on the month anniversary of her passing and I have noticed that since she died, I have definitely been a lot less motivated than normal and something just feels off. I’m 100% in a subtle stage of depression, and I’m scared that I don’t know when it will end. Her birthday is on 3/29, and I Know that will be hard for me. I know grief if different for everyone, but I have this emptiness in my soul that is tearing me apart mentally and emotionally. I just miss her so much, but I know she is at piece and with my grandpa again, so that is giving me some much needed comfort.
thank you for letting my ramble on. I needed to get that off my chest and felt this was a safe place to do that.
@jessie06
My condolences on your loss.
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I am so sorry! I am currently experiencing the same feelings... It's hard and hurts every day. My grandmother entered hospice los angeles as she needed a special service that can make the last months or days of her life as comfortable as possible. Several months later, she passed away. I have never dealt with a loss before so I don't know how to cope it yet.
Sending heartfelt condolences on your loss.
I've lost a loved one as well, not too long ago, and it wasnt easy dealing with the grief.
Remember the good times you spent with her and talk about them with others. She will always be alive in your heart.
@jessie06 I’m so sorry for your loss. Of course you will grieve this wonderful relationship that is, in a sense, a big part of who you are. From now on, any life that you touch is also touched by your grandmother. You honor her in every breath you take, in every struggle you endure, in any tear you cry, any word you say, and every smile you give. And you know, if she had only one wish for you, it would be that you’re happy.