Coming upto 3rd year angelversary
next month will be the 3rd angelversary for my son isiah.. year 1 was all shock, year 2 was all acceptance and leading up to year 3 is all sorts of mixed emotions.. some of the emotions nearly as intense as the beginning days.. Isiah was a hit and run victim in my hometown he was on his way home (walking) and he was struck by a truck and left to die.. to this day ten driver and truck haven’t been discovered.. its been a journey that’s for sure.. not a journey I wanted to take at all.. my life had to be recreated, I had to be recreated to find a new normal.. luckily though some days I’m able to forget well not forget but my brain has allowed me to dissociate sometimes which is a blessing or I’d crumble.. I’ve never been this vulnerable before.. I’ve lost many loved ones in my life but nothing compares to watching a casket close on your son and the sand fill the hole where the casket lays.. some days I relive the night isiah died, some days I relive the funeral not by choice.. if only I could completely control these images in my brain and the thoughts
