Following through and pushing forward.
It’s hard to stay afloat, trying to get back to prudence, stuck on basics and simple, have to go from simple to being prudent.
It’s hard to do everything alone only to be stuck with people with lack of drive or similar minded people, tried reaching out so many times, only to very little avail, gonna have to do certain things on my own, gotta be organized, visualize and get to my check points, work, gym church. Do errands, and have all each increments and pieces constantly accounted for and tagged in.
Always knew that you should never focus on a job, you should focus on a career, something long term, something you enjoy doing, that also has perks and pros and fits into a positive and progressive being. It seems every time I am just about to cross the finish line, i always get denied or some crazy calamities takeaway all the things I need to hit the goal, it’s friggen frustrating because when I am denied or lose my shit, always get stuck and end up taking it out on myself which clouds my judgement or take to bad habits.
Have to get pass that and focus on my priorities and goals and knock them out one and a time, frustration is good as I know I am making effort to solidify them, but exhaustion and fatigue set in both mentally, and physically and even spiritually I feel smashed down.
Need to one up and reach out again to stay positive and stay consistent, which is retardedly hard. But I know where there is struggle there is progress, but I can’t bullshit myself already, if I’m gonna be in it has to be all in, and be rigorously discipline, even if it means going without certain things, also have to strike the hammer while the iron is hot, for once i backslide and procrastinate, it is an arduous task to kindle the fire back, once it’s burning, gotta keep it going and burn the midnight oil. Thankfully with studying a little stoicism to being pragmatic about things, to toughen my skin and have alternative methods, to study a little Buddhism and click in some Confucius and Lao tzu for some practicalities, and bounce towards the spiritual teachings and practices of the Bible.
Along side those as base, turn to the more recent wise business men who have those teachings, Jim rhon, Brian tracey, Zig ziglar, Tony robins, and Les brown. To have all their books, to watch their videos and also participate in their seminars. That way certain aspects are gained. Those guys are a must have in your repertoire of profession.
Even more so people to talk to in person, a social worker, case manager, friend, pastor and or gym trainees, a consistent of this is needed for progress.
Almost there, ABC-123. let’s do this.
Stay on that grind, hustle beats talent when talent doesn’t hustle, affirmate, meditate and pray.
Law of attraction.
Stressed out, but optimistic. Beaten to a pulp, but not defeated, if you’re going through hell, keep going.
Cant lie, did I bite off more than I could chew? Absolutely. But I will rise again, retry and eb closer, for by the yard it’s hard, but inch by inch it’s a cinch.
Hurah
@Simpleman123
I don't know how old you are but I'm 61 and still on a journey of perseverance. I often wonder if I will feel safe enough to stop and say, "This is good - I did good". Until that happens, it continues to be in the journey. Within that journey, with that true struggle of perserverance you are approaching head-on are many seeds being planted that will come to fruition later and in full bloom if you/we do not quit.
Be well my friend and keep fighting the good fight.
@IsayUncle
Thanks brethren, no it is not easy, I’ve been dipping in and out of the Phantom zone, so much toxicity in the work force and too much wickedness encompasses me, I feel like David, Eziekiel, Daniel and the prophets, yet I’m not nearly as steadfast as them. But I won’t give up.
I made a mistake in some instances of going for hailmarys, and shooting for big goals only to be overwhelmed and pummeled back down, than got up and out things back together, tried to run it in, for the first downs, only to see I was majoring in minor thing.
I think it’s best to run it in one more time, and go for short passes that way my pushing for the goal can be more consistent, pain staking, but know that it’s worth it. Back to the moment of damn if I don’t, and damn if I do, so I should as well give it all in. Short sprints, and long jogs in my goal, be the rabbit for little things and be the turtle for longer goals. Knowing that as long as I don’t quit, I will succeed.
All I wanna do is work, gym church. And get to my in between checkpoints. Housing, book stores, classes and seminars, and be wholesome, but man can the mind slip, just a little procrastination can cost you years worth of work. And bad habits can also spell a ding in the soul. But we have a merciful God, so as long as we come back to him, beaten, he will heal us, astray’d he will call us to come back, lost he will give us a compass, and hated he will love us.
Just have to be obedient, steadfast and disciplined. Simple life aint so simple, but it’s worth the try, Pursuit to do.
Thanks for the one up brethern. Ill get there and fight for life. All the way.
Before you can lead, you must learn to follow.
Havamal For Wisdom and wits.
Let no man glory in the greatness of his mind, but rather keep watch over his wits.
Cautious and silent let him enter a dwelling; to the heedful comes seldom harm, for none can find a more faithful friend than the wealth of mother wit.
Less good than they say for the sons of men is the drinking oft of ale:
for the more they drink, the less can they think and keep a watch o'er their wits.
The unwise man is awake all night,
and ponders everything over;
when morning comes he is weary in mind, and all is a burden as ever.
Long is the round to a false friend leading, e'en if he dwell on the way:
but though far off fared, to a faithful friend straight are the roads and short.
One's own house is best, though small it may be; each man is master at home; though he have but two goats and a bark-thatched hut tis better than craving a boon.
Let a man never stir on his road a step
without his weapons of war; for unsure is the knowing when need shall arise of a spear on the way without.
Dont be naive, be kind but suspect rudeness and meet it promptly, use simpleness, and mindfulness, and don’t overlook nor oversee things, simple is not so easy, if you can master simple you will know that being organized and accountable is a not just a necessity, it is a must to keep flowing with the stream, and not against it. Drop useless endeavors if it does not keep you moving productively, and promptly. Anxieties like fear is a good thing if it can be moderated and domesticated, never let it rule you, but don’t discard it or put it off. Progress comes hand in hand with the struggle. Be firm and unwavering, and also know when you are over your head so you can call yourself out on it, and get back to the books.
Invoke its and materialize it, to visualize one must be organized.
Our greatest weakness lies in giving up. The most certain way to succeed is always to try just one more time.
- Thomas A. Edison
@Simpleman123
“It's not how many times you get knocked down that count, it's how many times you get back up. ” —George A. Custer
@IsayUncle
Good endurance quote, but I’m about perseverance quotes, for book of Job shows the pinnacle of endurance, along with Epictetus, and I understand them, but I am about hitting back, not just taking blows.
To respond, not just react, to follow through, not just be idle. To converse, not just remain silent, I truly love and yet hate all these Buddhist and stoics who gravitate towards silence, I need to speak, speak my problems and woes into existence, once it’s acknowledged, to bring it to the shrift, I can call it out and spit in its face, or atleast give words to a sigh.
It is pretty bad for me to cope with such adversity and opposition, but have to remember. If there is no enemy inside. The enemy outside can do me no harm. Because I am game even at not 100% bodily capacity. I have enough fluition to know if it has to get gritty, I will attack with blue flamed furry. But I wanna attack my priorities that way, not others on the outside.
Ebbing closer and closer, cant let up. Home stretch. Time to turn the page and get to the next chapter.
Steady as she goes.
Measure, gauge and review.
Don’t over look, account for necessities, apply basics.
Contra flow, routine, procedure.
Regime, pattern, practice.
Have to discern what is productivity and progress, from activity and rut.
Correct, resolve and formulate.
