"The feeling of shame, guilt, and fear of failure."
I recently realized that I was suffering from wrong thinking, especially since I was following some scientists. In energy, their content was somewhat misleading. After I discovered the truth, it was a shock that brought me back to my senses and reality, and I am slowly trying to correct my mistakes. Imagine that for two years I did not ask for a work certificate until recently. I am shocked. Is it a shock and a distortion of my thinking? And the people I was following and I thought they were guiding me to the right path could not help me, but once I stopped following their delusions and resorted to God and recovered properly, my vision became clear, but I still have some fears, but I am better than before because those things made me feel that I was in control of my reality, and thus I feel very guilty. They were conflicting beliefs. Recently, I discovered that my addiction to social media also distorted my perception of myself, so I immersed myself in those energy sciences and was drawn into anesthetizing my mother, and I thought I was curing her.
It's completely normal to feel guilt or fear after stepping away from beliefs that once felt comforting but ultimately misled you. The important thing is that you're recognizing the impact it had on you and taking steps to realign yourself with truth. You're already making progress, and recovery from distorted thinking takes time. Be patient with yourself. Have you found any specific practices or habits that help you feel more connected to reality and truth? Maybe limiting social media, journaling, or spending more time in prayer and reflection?
@sunny7997 Hi, I just want to say that it takes a lot of strength and self-awareness to realize when you've been misled and to actively work on correcting your thinking. That kind of change, especially following two years, must feel like a great shock, and it's reasonable to feel disoriented or even guilty. But I hope you are kind to yourself; you were doing what you felt to be right, and now that you have clarity, that is what really matters. Coming to terms with the reality that people you trusted didn't really steer you in the correct direction is also exceptionally difficult. That kind of insight can throw off your sense of reality, but especially in your faith, it seems like you are finding a more solid foundation again. Though healing and growth are not instantaneous, you are already on a better road and should be proud of yourself even if you still have some worries. Regarding social media, you are not alone; it's easy for us to become enmeshed in particular stories or ideas, especially when they make us feel like we are in control, but you recognizing how much it impacted you is a huge advance. I understand the feeling of guilt can be heavy, but please keep in mind that with your mother, you were trying to help and weren't acting out of malice, and that intention matters. I'm glad to read you are feeling better than before, and I hope you continue to find peace and clarity. You are not alone in this, and I hope you give yourself grace as you keep moving forward.