Struggling with Suicide Ideation / Depression
During the past couple of weeks I've been struggling with suicide ideation and depression. On top of that I live with GAD & social anxiety, along with PTSD> This isn't the first time in my life that I've struggled with suicidal thoughts. I've dealt with it since elementary school. Sometimes events trigger these thoughts in me.....I've been dealing with a lot of rapid change that I didn't plan for and I'm having a hard time. I'm in a place where my family isn't close to me (3,000 miles away). Things will change soon, but I just need some support right now. I hope that I can make it into the new year
Things were getting a little bit better, then I learned that one of my classmates passed away from rumoured suicide & found in her dorm. This made me very sad because I saw her every day in the dining hall, and at the same time it reminded me of all the times that I felt out of place & depressed in college. I keep thinking about her......
I'm so sorry about your friend. It can get very difficult at times dealing with these thoughts and anxiety and depression etc make it so much worse, I deal with similar thoughts quite frequently, but they pass.....yes they return again. But keep your hope that life will get better and you will make it. Remember, you are not alone even though it feels that way at times. A lot of the time, I'll just come here and read the forums of what others are struggling with, if I can help or encourage them, I do. I find it hard to be around people because of anxiety so it's easier for me to communicate on this site. Take care of yourself and never give up hope, I still believe in miracles and sometimes that's all I have to keep me going.
sending love and prayers to you 🙏🏻
Brian
OptimisticPeace71,
Thank you for posting, it takes great courage to speak honestly about how you are feeling. I'm glad you are with us on 7Cups and I hope you will talk in individual sessions if you need the extra support.
Suicidal ideation is always difficult to deal with and I'm sorry you are struggling with these thoughts. Experiencing a series of unplanned changes can definitely shake up your life and make it harder to cope in your usual ways. Have you worked through any of the Self-Help guides on 7Cups, they are located under "My Path." You may find the depression and anxiety modules helpful. There are some helpful breathing exersises in the anxiety one.
I hope this period of suicidal ideation passes quickly for you and you are able to find balance soon.
Take care of you!
~ CourageLeadsToNewLife
I'm feeling a lot better since I made this post. @courageleadstonewlife