Losing Touch With Reality
I don't know what it is or why but I'm having some difficulties as of late keeping in touch with what's really there and what isn't. It sounds nuts but I keep on hearing like vague voices or music or even ringtones every so often and I really have to focus on whether I'm actually hearing it or if my mind just thinks it is. But that's more uncommon, I guess because it only happens once in a while. What's really common is seeing things that aren't really there - at least I'm pretty sure they're not. But every day it seems I'm always catching something dancing just on the edge of my peripheral but when I turn to look it's not there. Or I'll glance at something and turn away and when I turn back it's gone like it was never there in the first place. And I keep having memory issues too. I have to keep asking my mom or sister if this or that was always there, and I keep on forgetting what's going on, what was I doing, what was I about to say, and, hey, are you sure that has been there for the past five years because I don't remember it and it's just driving me crazy. Maybe I'm just blowing this all out of proportion but I need somebody else's opinion because I don't think my family understands how lost I feel sometimes because I sometimes don't know and don't remember what's happened and what's imaginary.
@Sesianna it is very frightening to feel like you are losing control of your mind and the beliefs of what reality was. I was wondering if you are familiar with grouding techniques. In your case it might be really useful to use things that have been utra familiar to you to help seperate the reality from the imaginary. I think also it might be really important to discuss these issues with a doctor if thAT OPTION IS AVAILABLE TO YOU. How do you feel about talking about these things with a mental health professional?
@coolvibes Thank you for replying! I've never actually been aware of "grounding techniques" and I don't know if they would be useful since I am really bad at stuff like meditation, especially when I'm really stressed out. My family is too poor to afford for me to see a mental health professional and I'm honestly really hesitant about seeing one at all. I'm pretty wary of sharing this kind of stuff because I'm really afraid of being mocked or being told that it's all in my imagination, you know? Especially since my friends have all had bad experiences with sharing their mental health issues to actual professional. Gosh, I felt really uncomfortable just posting this thread and I was seriously debating deleting minutes after posting it because I felt so embarassed.