Rampant thoughts

For quite some time I have had rampant and sometimes uncontrollable thoughts that have stemmed from isolation and torment that has haunted me for many years. The things, society, and many of the people around me constantly serve as a reminder of much of the emotional, physical, and psychological torment I have been through. I don't really expect any understanding, as I haven't heard of anyone who has had similar problems. I have noticed that the less isolated I am, things get much better. When I avoid negativity, and embrace positivity, I then improve. Isolation has in some way made rampant thoughts escalate from being something that only used to haunt me on some days, but wear off, then it became an every day thing that I have little breaks from. I have found it to be motivated by hate for the people in this world who have tormented me and have disturbed my inner peace for many years. I have been manipulated and deeply hurt by people who have had power over me and have held very powerful powers over others throughout my life and I just want it to end. I cannot go into specifics or I risk facing ultimate consequences. Fighting back against negativity is a difficult thing when you are surrounded by people and things that act like salt in an old wound, and are occasionally harassed and invaded by people who you can't confront or defeat. Being harassed and litterally invaded is a very degrading experience that I cannot avenge. It is frustrating. And hurtful. I await the day when I can finally be at peace.