Express your problems here.

First paragraph is background story.
My superior officer spoke careless word (for blame me and my works.. like 'your salary is unearned for you' 'oh you are okay without thinking i am jealous to you' 'please use your head') always it give me hard time. It makes me gloomy and pessimistic. She blame me always and also talk to other coworkers about my faults. But her put to me her own work and she hang out.. Other coworkers didn't care about that. It is very stressful for me and giving hard time to me.
And now I am not belonging that company anymore so I stop meeting my superior officer(exactly ex- now). So my mind is calm now.
But, nevertheless, sometimes I am gloomy. I am so conversable now, but sometimes I said "oh so boring.. so tedious.."(it was my pet phrases when I was belonging company..)
and also, I am tweaky, angry more easier than before. It makes me feel strange.
I went to trip overseas last months for 1 week. I study now what i want to learn, because I wanna recharge my batteries and clear my head during break time. I think I have exactly good time nowadays.
My situation is very good now, so I don't have any improvement. But I am gloomy also. It makes me confused. If something can help me than I will make effort for that, but I don't know what help me. Just past the time until be good?