Confused
I want things to be normal. Nothing has been normal. I cant adapt to changes in my environment or routine very well. It makes me spiral out of control, and I don’t know why. I guess if things aren’t consistent then I can’t ever trust what comes next. It makes me question if the people in my life do truly love me. It makes me wonder if all of the good things in my life are just temporary and that everything is just going to get worse - again. I have no concept of what stability means. I do not know how to « ride » the wave of life with the ups and downs because I can’t regulate as I’m doing it.
@peachMap135
Thank you for sharing I really do resonate with this. I think it's fact that life is a wave and that there is never really a prolonged good time or prolonged bad time. One day we'll be very happy other days we'll feel sad. It really is a 'wave'. The issue isn't trying to find that sustained happiness that lasts forever rather it's being able to accommodate and adapt to each of the changes that life presents. For me the more I accepted that the future is unpredictable gave me more autonomy and control over what I am doing currently. Sure there's no guarantees in life but there is a large degree of influence we can assert on certain outcomes.
