Waiting

Past how many closed doors does one have to go to come across an opened one?

The requirement is patience and as soon as an opportunity is visible it is time to go for it; yet this is a time of no concrete opportunity, no productive ideas, a mere concept of what can be done, but a lack of resources nulifies it. It's as a middle space of sorts, a neutral ground; you look to the left, you see the means to go there, yet there is a lack of means; you look to the right and it's the same thing. There is a need for a push, yet this isn't in the person's power. It's a time of slow accumulation, getting the means; but in between these slow events, although certain habits have been set, boredom often prevails. I guess there is nothing to be done but to continue waiting for what is presumably the person - perhaps the only next opened door is her. The name Mia is haunting me for years now; what are the chances that she's on 7Cups? I have the principle of 'one body', thus every woman that comes to me with certain intentions is void; I feel nothing when I look in their eyes, there's no essence of fellowship, no proper foundation, I haven't been created with them - we can be extraordinarily compatible, yet the essence is different, you can't expect a counterfeit to exist as an original.

Anyways while I wait, I can draw and I can sculpt, if there is anyone with some artistic ideas please feel free to share them, I'll do them and post pictures here; heck I can even send it to your home why not.