I'm feeling extremely jealous and sorry for myself at the moment... And I'm also feeling guilty that I'm feeling this way. It doesn't seem fair... I absolutely love dancing and I love the way I feel while dancing, the thrill of being on stage and conquering my stage fear again and again while performing... It isn't fair that I can't dance now because of the nerve damage to my legs... I miss dancing so much that it hurts... It was my way of letting go and being in the moment. And a friend I have, she was telling someone else that she dances just to prove to the others that she can, not because she loves it. And she dances to win a competition, not simply for the joy of dancing, which is what I danced for. It isn't fair that she can dance, whereas I cannot.
