I am a Mess

I am a mess.

I am an introvert who once gets into her zone becomes an extrovert.

I am an introvert who once sees her people would relax but yet still have that feeling of awareness.

I am a shy person who doesn't opens her mouth at the first meeting but once she gets comfortable, boy you're in big trouble.

I am a talkative person with literally describing every single detail which is not at all needed.

I am a multitasker by doing all of the work given by other people but I never do mine.

I am a listener, I can sit through hours and listen to whatever you wanna say but I hesitate to approach anyone to listen to me.

I am a speaker but I shut up when I see a small disinterest from the others.

I am a speaker but when I start to talk about myself there are no words coming out of my mouth.

I am a baker, I love to bake but I don't like who I become once I receive the criticism which is so not constructive.

I am a student who loves to do math, but I can't seem to solve the real life problems which is playing out in front of me.

I am a coder who wants to contribute something to the society and prove it to them but I haven't found any passion in this field.

I am a reader, I love to read books but I long for a reading buddy who's just like me.

I am a writer, yes I don't write like many people out there but I write to fill my heart's content.

I am a writer but when I sit down to write about myself all I can see is a blank page.

I am delusional thinker wishing for that guy who could love my imperfect self but I know that wish isn't gonna happen anytime soon.

I am a girl who is beautiful in her own away but never ever appreciates her beauty, all she does is criticize every single detail about her.

I am a girl who has long hair and loves it but I can't maintain it seeing as they wither away just like everything else in my life right now.

I am a girl who has two younger brothers, who'll always matter more to everyone around me.

I am a girl who is depressed but isn't doing anything to reach out and ask for the help she desperately needs.

I am a girl who can't even breath properly due to god knows what.

I am a girl who struggles to take in even a single breath in, knowing each time she does it, it hurts her both physically and mentally.

I am girl who was bullied mentally and physically but never got anyone to stand beside her.

I am a girl who listens to all the *** everyone says and doesn't says back.

I am a girl who advices people to stand up for themselves but never has once stood up for her.

I am a girl who begs people to love themselves but all she does is hate herself completely.

I am a girl who's slowly turning into a woman watching everything she built breaking down into million tiny pieces.

I am a mess, that's all I am.