Going through some tough time and existential crisis and have nothing to turn to.
Lately I am feeling very down so much going on inside like everyday I just feel like i don't want the another day like thisand worst thing is I feel all alone in the situation, which is so frustrating that people I love I can't talk about this it them or they won't understand it. Lossing trust from the people to share with and don't want to complain to the people everyday too. So i am trying to write this here.
Everyday at the end of the day I came in my room and cry till I sleep. I feel so lonley at that time, loosing connection with myself and wanting to run away from all of this. It feels frustrating that I don't know who to talk about what I am going through, my family just don't care about this thing. I don't want to share it with the friends. Listeners here, sometimes I tried to talk to them but don't want to talk to them everyday about how bad I am feeling. I don't feel like going to college tomorrow, it sucks to go in public when I am feeling like this. I have to go to college tomorrow and take test. Because of this mental state I had a relapse light night (pmo) and now i am feeling like a failure too.
There are a lot of things going on but I am feeling all alone in this and don't have any energy to go through this.
@exuberantTalker9747
I hope you are doing a bit better been a few days since you wrote this.... no matter what the situation is you might be surprised in how many people will understand we cannot tell looking at someone what they have gone through or what wisdom they may have to impart .....
we keep ourselves in pain afraid of being judged or not understood, speaking up is the hardest yet the most rewarding thing to do in the long run... break the cycle of whatever your going through find someone to speak with and remember your family may also surprise you in being able to understand or help.