autism and spiritual enlightenment/discovery.

My real life began when I found my spirituality by consuming psilocybin mushrooms. I became delusional, raving on & on over the meaningless of life & death for about hour before I was able to clear my mind of the negatives and eventually I was able to percieve my own soul, literally connecting with the universe & then I became my true higher self; I was able to speak to complete strangers as if I had known them their whole life, allowing my inner self to reveal my true, kindhearted nature to everyone. I found my faith & purpose in living; however I only wish for further guidance & knowledge in/of the mind to feel that infinite inner bliss. Websites & books are useful in providing info & insights, but I need a listener who can respond with genuine interest & really participate in the channelling of ones soul. (my Asperger's syndrome is the aspect of my life that leaves me consumed by these deep thoughts of creation, the universe, the spirit, or existence its self; its what made me so observant of my own awareness, its why im so touch-oriented, & its how I came to thinking this way). "Do not lose time on daily trivialities. Do not dwell on petty detail. For all of these things melt away and drift apart within the obscure traffic of time. Live well and live broadly. You are alive and living now. Now is the envy of all the dead."