Needing a listener and a friend

I'm a single mom who is in college and who is trying to cope with past rape and abuse. I find myself cutting and useing drugs and sex as a way to escape from everything. I have anxiety attacks a lot. I don't have any friends and my family does not care. I have givien up on God recently. I could really use a listener who will not only listen but be a friend as well... I hope someone can help... Thanks again in advance..