My sister is living my dream and it's really affecting me. I feel very blue about it.

I'm 24/m and My dream is to be a voice actor. Always has been, i love animation and have always wanted to be a part of it. I even took theater all through high school and college. I took lessons and everything. I got encouraged by my idol, Megan Hollingshead, to pursue this dream after i sent her a fan letter. My sister,16, however, has never stated any interest in being an actress. She mostly wanted to be in sports. I cant play sports because of physical problems. So she had her thing, and i had my thing.

Recently, there was an open audition for a local tv show. I saw the ad and felt like it was fate, so i signed right up. I was really excited and couldn't help but talk about it, it's the most excitement i've felt in awhile. My sister didn't seem happy for me, she got annoyed cause it was all i talked about. But then she asked for the link to it so she could sign up too. I refused but she complained to our dad and he said he wouldn't drive me if i didn't.

Long story short, i didn't pass but i was ok with that, there were a ton of people trying out. I didn't get upset until she got called, they had a perfect role for her. She put it on speaker and asked me "Isn't that great, i got picked!" I stormed off and just started crying. I told her that it's not fair. She's living my dream. My dad said i need to support her but i told him no, that she shouldn't have been there and stole it from me. He said i should be proud, but i listed off everything i've done to get my foot in the door and it's unfair she can just waltz in and steal it. He told me life isn't fair. My sister keeps parading around and bragging to everyone and they both say i'm overreacting. I refuse to help her with her lines, i won't encourage her at all. I asked "Don't you already have enough? You have sports, better grades and a beauty pageant trophy. Why do you have to take the 1 thing i want?"

She keeps throwing it in my face, asking me to help her with her lines but i won't.

I told her she doesn't deserve it. She cried but i didn't care.

Now, my sister vs me, she's perfect in every way. Pretty, athletic, successful academically and has sports scholarships. I can't play, i can barely walk across the room or stand for more then 10 minutes without pain, i'm also just not a looker. I have just one thing that makes me special, it's my main reason for getting up. Voice Acting. My one true passion, it's the one thing i dedicated my life too. I can't work normal jobs and my parents are forced to take care of me. I'd love to do it and seeing her get in on her first try with no effort really upsets me. I have to see her every day.

But now, i feel just awful, very blue and just worthless. I have no talents. When my parents get sick of dealing with me, i'll have nowhere to go and will probably end up in a group home somewhere or assisted living, watching my sister live my dream out.