In Dire Need of a Long Term Listener #2

Hello. I used to have two listeners I could reach out to but not both of them seem to have vanished. Therefore, I feel the need to post this again.

I'm 18 and female, looking for a listener who will be able to help with the issues listed below:

1-Long term feelings of detachment from the real world& society,

2- An unhealthy dependence on fiction/ fictional concepts& characters,

3- Asexual/ aromantic tendencies,

4- A very scattered personality,

5- BPD/ bipolar tendencies,

6-Constantly falling out with people,

7-Feeling smothered by real life relationships 90% of the time,

8- Feelings of belonging to a "different place" despite being non-religious,

9- Feeling like my real purpose cannot be completed here (as in this world),

10- Constantly feeling as if I've been let down,

11- Very little motivation to continue life. (This can also straight up turn into feeling suicidal depending on other factors.)

Thank you for taking the time to read this.