Autism Spectrum Disorder + Anxiety
I've written, deleated, forgotten about, and rewritten a personal thread to put up in the classified a number of times now, but I think it's time to use my lack of sleep (so therefore current snap decision making) to its potential advantage - and post this before I remember how scary this is for me. It's probably a good thing that you cant delete your own forum posts on 7cups.. heh..
I get really nervous about reaching out and I've had only a couple good experiences in finding a listener. I talk to a couple people 1on1 regularly but more so as casual friends more than as listener/members in the intended dynamic. It's due time to find someone who can really be a listener for me. Between my mild autism, anxietly, and introverted/private personality, I have a hard time developing relationships. I struggle with some things from one day to the next and I really hope to find someone who I can talk to about that. With my casual relationships with those I talk to 1on1 already, I get warry of asking for too much because I like those relationships how they are and I'm afraid of loosing or altering them. I know I can be a hand-ful and I can go from manic to unresponsive in the blink of an eye.. my mind gets in the way sometimes... so I guess I'm looking for a more patient listener (who can be a more formal listener) who is just as okay with spread out slow messages sent back and forth as a regular live conversation...
here's to trying to put myself out there!
xx