I don't have anyone I can express myself to.

I want friends. To whom I can talk to. I don't feel like doing anything. I don't go anywhere. Going to school and coming back from school. Anyone from India? I've many friends but they are just in schools. When I come back to my house they are all strangers. I cannot get any closer to them. I have never got a best friend. I just meet friends and they leave. Nothing works for me. I cannot make friends offline. And it's I think it's the same for online too. Because I start talking to someone randomly and suddenly my mood changes. I didn't wanna talk to them. But this feeling just stay for 2 3 days. And after that I want to talk to them. But I think it becomes really late for them. So they either block me or never text me. If I text they just leave me on seen. So I want a friend who stays with me for a longer time not just for 3 - 4 years. Anyone from India??