How do I be a better friend?
I screwed up with one of my friends a few months ago and I've been mentally beating my self up for it I wish I could go back in time and fix /change what happened .I just want to start over but I cant. I felt like I ruined the whole friendship I dont know if I can forgive myself. I didnt intionally mean to harm him but I think hes hurt and I dont know what to say.i apologized tho and I havent heard from him back yet. I wana tell him what happened and open up to him about it but I'm scared .Should I leave him alone?
people mess up .... and sometimes we do things that cause harm even though that was not the intention ........ you have apologized and as long as it was sincere and taken that way give them time to absorb it
I find many people need time to think about items and decide how to proceed from there.
May be give them time to get healed. And meanwhile write what you want to say to him. Sometimes these things are like earworms, songs which are stuck to our brain. You can get over by singing or listening to the end of the song and you will get over it. Same way you need to write your side of the story.
Unless you become calm it is useless to talk. It will just create more misunderstandings. And they will feel uncomfortable.
This is just my opinion.
My best wishes to you.