Can somebody be my long-term listener or maybe just be a friend? please?

I have a dark childhood. Mother have mental issues, dad being the breadwinner and rarely come home or cares about me. Dropped school at seven grade. Relatives don't give a damn about us even tho we live pretty near to each other, even tho I did try to asked them for help when my mom having a episode when I'm young.

I realized my family history causing me incapable hold anything for long-term, relationship, job. I hope I can change.

I do have a long-term hobby. I like to draw. I can deliver you some fan art if you want to request. As long it's comic or cartoon related. like Spiderman or Arcane or something, I'm not that good at delivering stuff that's too cartoony.

I don't have a social media cuz I always think I'm not good enough to open an account.

I just hope someone can reach to me regularly for a long term... unlike my families just ignore me even when we live in the same house, even on holidays.

My dad, the only sensible person in my families rather bond with my relatives's kid than talk to me. I'm been holding my rational sense for so long. Im afraid of my mind might actually crack. Recently I'm drown in the sorrowness more frequently than before . I don't wanna become as crazy as my mom.