My mental health has ruined my friendships; What to do?
To make a very long story short; I got out of a very bad relationship last year; which made my pre-exisiting mental health MUCH worse..these friends came and picked me up and helped me SO much through the year. But; I was not consistent in therapy, or other ways to grow, so I've hurt them badly.. I messed up.
I was venting and sharing issues about other friends without taking steps to fix it, so it just ended up making them feel pinned against eachother, or like i purposefully tried to ruin the friend group, or like I was talking smack, this ENTIRELY wasn't my intention. But, that doesn't matter, because it happened wether i meant to or not.
My mental state is so bad, I really thought/think everyone was out to get me/disliked me, but I didn't actually go address that with the person. There are some true and valid issues in the friend group that I didnt address, so it just looks like I was purposely a jerk. Its a mess of my own making...the guilt and pain feels crushing. My friends snapped at me, and asked for 6 months to a year of space, and then maybe we can try again at friendship. Their reaction is valid; my issues i had are valid, but i didnt handle them correctly. Despite this, I feel really wounded...how do I begin to manage the pain resulting from this?
Hi Betterthoughts11,
this sounds like a frustrating situation to be dealing with. It sounds like you are experiencing some guilt for the events that led to this situation and hurt. It’s good that you’re trying to process the things that led to this situation and respecting your friends’ boundaries. That said, it’s understandable that you still may be feeling hurt or frustrated. You may need time to work through your feelings. What do you think you need to feel supported through this process of healing?