Loss of friendships over time
I just wonder why lots of my friendships does not last long. I think now I only have like 1-2 friends. I also have a "friend group" in uni, but I think it's only one sided. Other friends also have their own friend group. I'm almost always the floater friend, no one's favorite.
Seeing people around me or in social media with their friends, having fun just makes me question my worth as a person. Am I a bad person, that's why people leave me? I always try to treat people the best I can do, I always try to be there for them when they need anything.
It makes me sad that I get nothing from all of this but a lingering loneliness in my heart. I'm exhausted but I don't think I can survive alone easily in uni.
(im sorry if cringe guys english isnt my first language)
@solidcandies
This is very natural IMO..... find but somewhere out there is your group
i lost many friends as they were all one sided ....... i worked at a place that had many locations i transferred to other location for example and i had to make all the calls and plans and on their schedule and often closer to them then my location ......not even half way .......after many things like this i knew it was not worth it to do all the work and they were not good friends..... many in the little groups have some item that bonds them and you may not be as needy or clingy .......so you are the floater friend in case they need one more for an event or something .........it is tough to find but keep meeting new people do not fret over sometime friends....
you will know who your real friends are when they also make an effort, however I cannot speak because honestly I tend to push people away. I notice this mostly happens when I am not achieving/reaching or feel like I am reaching my goals and think I cannot be there for others but now I am learning it will be ok to make more time for other people if I really want to get meet people