Happy but standing in the middle
i am a mom to a Beautiful 26 old mentally handicapped daughter whom has Asperger's syndrome (autism) ADHD, developmentally delayed
she has 26 but a mindset of an 8 to a 10 year old.
I am her only parent her dad died in 2022..
she has older brothers that lives in a different state.
she is a Aunt to 4 beautiful girls..
its hard to do it all by yourself with no help ..
sometimes I am over joyed other times
i just want to pull the rest of my hair out .
i feel guilty for feeling the way I do
i want to talk to people at my church
but I am super scared of being judged
or looked down on ..
this is so hard I absolutely love my daughter
with all my being just I am feeling so
alone....ð¥¹
it doesn't help that I have heart disease
type 2 Diabetes and Parkinson's ð¥º
@SweetLynn
No one should ever look down on you. I cannot imagine how hard it is to care for a child with any issues that would require you to care for them all their life.
It is a huge responsibility and I am in absolute awe of parents like you.
I think all caregivers need a place to vent and decompress and it should be the least a friend or someone from church can do to support you. Do not feel guilty or sad that you still need a time out every so often.
@toughTiger6481
Thank You ..
You don't know how much that absolutely means to me..
I'm glad someone that ceases and can understand it's not that I'm wanting to run away it's not that I want to leave everything behind is that I just want a safe place to where I can say out loud I'm feeling stressed..
I have family here in Pensacola where I live with my daughter my mom and my older brother I don't talk to my mom because she don't understand must love because she's never been around someone like my daughter and she's older so she cannot handle taking care of my daughter she might can do it overnight and that's it..
It's just hard to find a place to wear you can write and you can express yourself to where somebody can see this read your words and say yes yes I understand and a lot of times we can't find that caregivers are limited on where they can go and what we can do yes we can hire therapist but that's money that we don't have and that's time that we can't take away..
I mean I would love to be able to talk with somebody another caregiver aren't just another parent or just another human being about how I feel I'm not depressed a long shot from being depressed I love my life I love waking up and knowing I get to see my daughter smile everyday everyday I love listening to her laugh..
