Family Letdown

I'm currently struggling with having consistently being let down by my family.

Making promises that they can't keep, abandoning me in favor of frivolous things.

Demanding so much from me while being unwilling to give anything in return.

I'm finally moving to get away from them, and as the days and hours tick closer to my moving day it just becomes so glaringly obvious how little I mean to these people.

I'm just a tool my mom wants to use to make my dad feel pain. She is offering unwanted help for something I am fully capable of doing on my own and is going out of her way to "help" solely for control over when and how I move.

My dad being unwilling to spend a second with me, help me, listen to my problems, anything. He constantly promised me that we would get to go do a weekend activity together before I leave, something he has been promising me that we would do for over 5 years now. Of course that never happened. He knows I move tomorrow and yet that's supposed to be the day he gets back from a trip.

My mom is trying to force me to leave before being able to say goodbye to my dad. While he has his faults, I still love him and want to be able to say goodbye face to face before I move halfway across the country. The two are divorced and honestly the very mention of my dad existing sets my mom off in a way that scares me.

My brother promises me that he will help yet has barely lifted a finger, and has spent all his time telling me what he thinks I should do despite me already having a plan.

I'm so tired of this family, I'm so worn out.

I wish my family were normal