This is going to be long

Looking for advice on my relationship with my husband. I want to judgements or criticisms.

First of all, I've struggled with chronic depression for a very long time, and I'm trying to take steps towards reclaiming my mind, but I feel very unable to talk to him about any of this.

My husband has combat related ptsd and a tbi, which lends itself to anger issues. His anger has scared me in the past, and I take a lot of steps to prevent him from raging out. He's gotten better in the years we've been together, he no longer drinks, he's in therapy, he's matured past a lot of his problems, and I'm so happy for him for that. He does his best to support me in everything I do, but I can't tell him any of my own internal struggles.

He has no idea the things that go on in my mind, and the few times I'd mentioned feeling blue he reacts as if I'm asking him to have a solution, and it's gotten close to him losing his own hold on his own problems. I get it. I've been a caregiver to him for years, and it can't be easy to think that his caregiver has problems too. He knows I have depression, given the obvious evidence of my suicide attempt in my youth, but I've made it a habit to conceal my feelings, and now I can't break the habit.

I'm also having a lot of problems in the bedroom. He's always been very amorous, but the past year I just don't want to. Hes started thinking I'm not attracted to him, which isn't true. It's hard to get aroused anymore, which is just compounding the issue. I guess I'm just wondering if anyone else has a similar situation, and what's worked for them.