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No contact troubles

Lesserri February 17th, 2021

Hi all, been having waves of guilt, abandonment, shame since I've gone no contact with my parents and my sister. I came to the realization I had to do this to stop the narcissistic abuse in all levels since she can no longer physically abuse me or have my dad do it. I've blocked my sister too cause she would be a flying monkey as well as my father. There are days im ok. And I can venture on, but there are days, weeks that I feel sick, nauseous, and feel like crumbling, but with the grace of God I keep going. Its exhausting, and hard and at the same time I'm processing stuff that is coming up from my past. The worst tho, is when my husband doesn't understand and gets mad at me cause I'm not happy. Which makes me feel worse, but again I am learning to stand up for myself. Im not sure if I'm making sense.

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PeaceLoveandPaws February 19th, 2021

@Lesserri

It makes sense to me. It's hard to go no contact with members of your family even if that is what you need to start healing. It takes time to process your feelings from both the past and the present. Standing up for yourself and your needs takes a lot of courage. I'm sorry to hear your husband seems angry with you. Is that something you feel you could talk about with him, your healing process?

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Lesserri OP February 19th, 2021

I have.. and it does help. All this tho is mentally exhausting too.. there are days I feel I can't even function, but somehow I get up, and go... yet at the same time crumbling inside

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