Mother Treats Me Like A Child
This may be long so please bear with me. I live with my mother and godmother and it is unbearable. They treat me like I'm 12 years old or something. I never do anything right. I have never had a job because of my bad anxiety and I may have Autism. I have never been diagnosed because my mother has always been in denial. She thinks I'm just playing games. Well yesterday there was a huge blowup. I got surrounded by the both of them. They wouldn't let me leave. My fiance was on skype at the time and heard everything and recorded it. This went on for over an hour. My fiance was supposed to come see me but not anymore for now. My mother and godmother made fun of the both of us. Called us all kinds of names. We are both over 30 years old and he has Autism and ADHD. We got made fun of for our weight. I got threatened to get hit. I got called *** and ***. They basically pried stuff out of me. I was too scared to talk and was shaking. I feel like I'm being pulled between them and my fiance and dad. I got made fun of for how I do things and the way that I dress. They are so wishy washy. One minute it's all good and they want my fiance and i to be together and the next it's like he and I are the worst people in the world. I can't really tell them anything I get too scared. I can't move in with my dad there isn't enough room and my fiance lives in another state and doesn't drive because of poor eyesight. I just recently got a car again but everyone keeps saying it won't do long trips, I am not allowed to go, and they will disable my car. It's like they want me to stay a little kid forever, never have a life and love of my own. I feel stuck and all I want is to be far away from here. I am not allowed to be myself. My godmother thinks she knows better than me and thinks I am stupid. Apparently she uses her son to spy on my social media for her so my instagram account is now private.
I just don't know what to do. Any advice is truly appreciated and sorry this is so long.
(Edited for content by @peaceloveandpaws)
@Uglyduckling1988
It sounds like you are in a very sticky situation. I am sorry that your mother and godmother are saying such hurtful things to you about you and your fiance. I know it must be hard to hear their negative criticism and having your privacy on social media invaded. You mentioned taking steps to make one social media account private. Is that something you can do with other social media accounts so that your privacy can not be invaded? You mentioned moving in with your dad isn't a possibility. Is he supportive of your feelings and can you be open with him about the stress and pressure you are experiencing? Are there local resources that can help you connect with mental heath support, housing, and possibly financial resources? Having a strong support system could be helpful to you moving forward.
@PeaceLoveandPaws Thanks for your reply. I have my instagram private. I wish I could block her on my facebook but that wouldn't end well at all. I can't move in with my dad yet he and my step mom live in a small apartment at the moment but they are looking for a house and they are supportive. Both my best friend who I have been friends with since I was 12 and Fiance believe that I have Autism as well as anxiety. My Fiance has Autism too. I have always been different. I don't know what to do. I don't have a job or any money and now I feel like my godmother is watching everything I do. I don't know of any resources and I have tried to look some up.