Empty void
My parents were never there for me. Well they were physically but that was it. Emotional, not at all. I went to them plenty of times to ask them advice for college major, or friendship issues, and help with chores and homework. But they couldn’t . They didn’t know how to. They yelled at me and said I should know even though I was only a child. And now, i am angry at them for it. For pushing me away when I asked for help and saying that I don’t listen to them. I did. I just didn’t get it. And now, they say it’s all of my fault for everything that happen in my life. They don’t take responsibility for their actions. I just want some form of safety. That everything I will be okay despite not having any family support. It’s hard for me to trust strangers. It’s hard for me trust anyone.
@Jam34598767
I am sorry your family was, and is, so emotionally distant from you. I can understand how that would be confusing, frustrating, and hurtful to you. I imagine how difficult it feels to haer them blame you for things that have happened in your life without taking into account how their own actions, lack of enotional support, have left you feeling unable to trust in others. I'm not sure you will get an apology from them you would like to have. I do know there are many people here who are doing okay without the support of their parents. Many people receive support here, through friendships, through therapy, or a combination of any or all. I have no way of knowing what your journey will be like in the future but I hope you thrive.
I totally understand how you are feeling. And it's okay to feel anger. You have a right to your emotions. Consider reaching out to a counselor, mentor, therapist. I weekly go to speak to someone to better myself since I grew up without family support. And with time, it can help you feel proud with how far you've come. Sometimes strangers are more like family than those we have known forever. You don't have to trust them with your life, but give small opportunities of trust. Prayers 💕
