I took the first step and it feels worse.... :/
So, I was put in the position where I was forced to tell my doctor about my ED or face involuntary hospitalization. So, I told him - but now, the ED voice is SO LOUD and it feels worse than it was before and I'm kind of freaking out because as long as I've dealt with this, I don't really get WHY it's worse and I hate not understanding. So, anyone have some thoughts on that?
@KatieMoon1
Proud of you for reaching out for support with your doctor and on here!!! The thing I learned is that ED voice will always be with you. Some days it's louder and some days it's softer. Some things that help me are reframing my thoughts. Like if I was to have an unhealthy ED thought, recognizing it's unhealthy is the first step, reframe it, and talk back to the ED voice. Some days it's easier to do this than others. For example, I watched a triggering movie and I had to stop my thoughts that her body looked better than mine. Reframe it that her body is not a healthy nourished body. And yell back at my ED that I'm not hurting my body anymore. I beeleaf in you 🐝 🍃🐝 🍃 the first step is telling people like you told your doctor. Proud <3<3<3
@summertimeSamness
Thank you. I am trying to do this - to rewrite the thoughts. It's so hard and most days I don't do a very good job at it - I'm just exhausted with everything. It's too hard to even try. :(
@KatieMoon1
Proud of you for trying. Your therapist will help you practice lots of coping things too <3 You didn't develop a eating disorder overnight so recovery is a long journey too but it's worth it for sure. Be gentle with yourself and even baby steps are steps in the right direction <3 Don't forget to celebrate small victories. Even recognizing the unhealthy thoughts can be hard too because they have been your unhealthy coping tools for a long time. The best way to heal is to talk it out like you are doing now <3
