I don’t even know anymore
I messed up :( I stopped taking in my calories and these past two weeks or so I been eating maybe 1 time a day, sometimes in a rare day and I know it’s not healthy but I feel so bad for eating twice today. I’m typing this as I’m eating my food and feeling super disgusted in myself, I can’t even tell my friends cuz they’ll be mad for not eating right. I can’t tell my parents bc I don’t want them to worry, my sisters never talk to me or are too busy to talk to me, I just don’t want to be fat anymore, I get motivated to loose the weight and then I lose it the next day, I’m tired of it and I’m tired of being fat, I tried to fit into my corset today after eating my meal, I couldn’t fit right away, i just want to lose the weight either before Halloween or soon, I’m sorry for venting.
@Psychoticlov3r Thank you for opening up about what you’re going through—it sounds like you’re carrying a lot of weight emotionally, in addition to the struggle with food. It’s really tough when the pressure to lose weight feels overwhelming, and I can hear how much you’re battling with feelings of guilt and frustration. It’s understandable that you don’t want to worry your friends or family, but it sounds like you’re really needing support right now & it's okay to ask for it.
You deserve kindness and patience from yourself, especially when you’re feeling down, and I want you to know that we’re here for you as you!
