Control in different forms for recoverées
Hi, I never really post or use 7cups anymore, but I just kinda wanna hear if anyone is in the same boat/if my seek for control stems from old e.d habits.
I have been actively trying to self-recover for four years now, and I am doing really great, recently ish got over a huge fear food of mine and I am just generally really proud of not having to control my kntake, but here's the thing.
My laptop just broke (a maybe 200$ worth, 7 year old Asus laptop, bound to happen I know), and I just had to spend 266$ on a new one, dipping into savings that is already not too flashy, and I broke down. Like guilt, urges of s.h returning which they don't do often (almost 2 years clean), and I am scared I might have a need for finance control, like yes, I don't mind getting a little treat, and sometimes I accidentally splurge but it feels like how it was when I would binge yk? Idk, I don't know if it comes from the same place, but do any "recoverées" relate? Is this normal in healing? Or am I placing the same issues in a different field?
Anyways, I hope you all have a good day, and thank you for reading this ramble, take care ❤️
You're right that the behavior is a symptom and can happen while healing @DanishDork
I used to have powerful urges to relapse. Sometimes I still do. Mostly because of the awareness I've gained in the healing process of the core issue, I don't identify much with those urges anymore.
