Binge eating / restriction and fear
About 3 years ago for about a year I've suffered from orthorexia, compulsive exercising and then anorexia. Unfortunately I didn't receive any help from anyone but somehow pulled through and got out of my eating disorder on my own with the help of resources online. I know it sounds silly but I have really healed and for some time was pretty good as I've been gradually getting better. However, I feel like some parts connected with disordered eating have stayed with me and I'm really not sure how to help myself. So for one, I still have a lot of thoughts connected to food and I very much overthink whether I am really hungry or not when I want to eat outside of my regular meals. Also, I still have some fear connected to gaining weight as I'm not really satisfied with myself and it's hard for me to accept myself while I'm getting heavier. I struggle with binge eating now and I binge about every three days and it's really hard for me to break that cycle, become less stressed about food and just be a normal person when it comes to accepting my body and eating. Does anybody have any tips on how to cope with these problems?
@selfdisciplinedTortoise4157
Hello, I wish I could give you better advice to help you with your struggle but I can tell you why I think it’s a bad idea to fall back into bad habits.
10 years ago when I was 13/14 I became severely orthorexic. I developed really bad bruising and pain in all my joints from over exercising.
After about a year I began getting intense hunger cravings and gave in. I ended up rebounding by binge eating large amounts every day and gained 50+ pounds in a year, weighing more than I ever had before.
This lead to yo-yo dieting, restriction, and purging. Now as a 23 year old who has had severe bulimia for the past 8 years I can tell you it wasn’t worth it.
I’m struggling to stay in university, i can’t sleep, I have really bad heart problems, my family and I are I constant arguments, and I can’t keep a friend because anytime they want to hang out it involves eating.
Trust me eating disorders don’t help you. I’m happy you managed to escape and I hope you can stay there. I really wish you the best. Please feel free to send me a message if you need to.
