how do you know if you have an eating disorder???

okay so basically my therapist hasnt been clear enough as to if i have one and i really dont want to go into detail with him because i dont want to worry anyone or if he tells my mum idk

im just going to tell you a bit about my relationship with food

so i constantly crave carbs and sugary snacks but i try to avoid them as much as i can because i know when i start i literally cant stop like im never fully satisfied i'll eat until im stuffed and sick. this could go on for hours lol like id try to control myself by stopping but then id find myself in the kitchen again and eating like a pig and its so embarassing and disgusting and makes me feel so ashamed and it's so fustrating because i can never bring myself to throw up so i cant even get it out of my system

im constantly thinking about calories and googling how "healthy" whatever im eating is and looking at the ingredients and calories. like its crazy if you look at my web history its all a ton of questions about food omg.

im always mindful of the time from when i start eating to when i stop to "control" myself.

i think about burning calories when im walking or doing any physical activity

i body check a lot especially after eating. it could be anytime and anywhere like i could be at college or the shops and if i pass a mirror i always end up checking myself out (not in a conceited way haha)

when i start binging i can never just binge on one thing. i could start off with some chocolate bars and eat a ton of those (i have such a sweet tooth) sometimes i even dip things in jam or honey for extra sweetness its crazy. and then i'll get a bit bored with it so i'll balance it out with something savory like bread and then crave something else and the cycle goes on. its just like i want it all in one go help me

even talking about this is making my tummy rumble omg