Letter to My Unhealthy Behavior (writing exercise, share yours below!)
- ๐๐๐๐จ ๐๐จ ๐ ๐๐ช๐ฃ ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐๐ข๐ฅ๐ค๐ฌ๐๐ง๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ง๐๐ก๐๐ฅ๐จ๐/๐ง๐๐๐ค๐ซ๐๐ง๐ฎ ๐ฉ๐ค๐ค๐ก ๐ฉ๐๐๐ฉ ๐ ๐ช๐จ๐ ๐๐ก๐ก ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐ฉ๐๐ข๐. ๐๐ฉ ๐๐๐ก๐ฅ๐จ ๐ข๐ ๐ฉ๐ค ๐ง๐๐๐ฃ๐ซ๐๐๐ค๐ง๐๐ฉ๐ ๐ข๐ฎ ๐ข๐ค๐ฉ๐๐ซ๐๐ฉ๐๐ค๐ฃ ๐ฉ๐ค ๐จ๐ฉ๐๐ฎ ๐๐ก๐๐๐ฃ! ๐๐๐๐ก ๐๐ง๐๐ ๐ฉ๐ค ๐ฉ๐ง๐ฎ ๐๐ฉ ๐ค๐ช๐ฉ ๐๐๐ก๐ค๐ฌ :) -
๐ป๐๐๐ฃ โ ๐ฆ๐๐ฅ๐๐๐ โ๐๐ ๐ฃ๐๐๐ค,
๐๐ค๐ช ๐๐๐ซ๐ ๐๐๐ช๐จ๐๐ ๐ข๐ ๐ ๐ก๐ค๐ฉ ๐ค๐ ๐จ๐ฉ๐ง๐๐จ๐จ ๐๐ฃ ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐ฅ๐๐จ๐ฉ ๐๐๐ฌ ๐ข๐ค๐ฃ๐ฉ๐๐จ. ๐ ๐๐๐๐ก ๐ก๐ ๐ ๐ ๐๐๐ฃ'๐ฉ ๐๐๐ฉ ๐ข๐ค๐ง๐ ๐ฉ๐๐๐ฃ 500 ๐๐๐ก๐ค๐ง๐๐๐จ ๐ ๐๐๐ฎ ๐ฌ๐๐ฉ๐๐ค๐ช๐ฉ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐ฌ๐๐๐จ๐ฅ๐๐ง๐๐ฃ๐ ๐๐ฃ ๐ข๐ฎ ๐๐๐ง. ๐๐ฎ ๐จ๐๐ง๐๐๐ฃ ๐ฉ๐๐ข๐ ๐๐จ ๐ช๐ฅ ๐๐๐๐ช๐๐จ๐ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐๐๐ซ๐ ๐๐ค๐ง๐๐๐ ๐ข๐ ๐ฉ๐ค ๐จ๐๐๐ง๐๐ ๐ช๐ฅ ๐๐ซ๐๐ง๐ฎ ๐๐ค๐ค๐ ๐'๐ซ๐ ๐๐๐ฉ๐๐ฃ ๐๐ฃ ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐๐๐ฎ. ๐ ๐จ ๐๐ฅ๐ฅ๐๐ ๐๐ง๐๐ ๐๐๐จ๐ฉ ๐๐ค๐ง ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช, ๐ ๐๐ซ๐๐ฃ ๐จ๐ฉ๐๐ง๐ฉ๐๐ ๐จ ๐๐ฅ๐ฅ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ก๐ช๐ฃ๐๐ ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ข๐ค๐จ๐ฉ ๐ค๐ ๐๐๐ฃ๐ฃ๐๐ง ๐๐ค๐ง ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช. ๐ผ๐ก๐ก ๐๐ค๐ง ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช. ๐๐ค ๐ฉ๐๐๐ฉ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐๐ค๐ช๐ก๐ ๐จ๐๐ ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐ฃ๐ช๐ข๐๐๐ง ๐ค๐ฃ ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐จ๐๐๐ก๐ ๐๐ค ๐๐ค๐ฌ๐ฃ. ๐๐ค ๐ฉ๐๐๐ฉ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐๐ค๐ช๐ก๐ ๐จ๐๐ ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐ฝ๐๐ ๐๐ค ๐๐ค๐ฌ๐ฃ. ๐ฝ๐๐๐ช๐๐จ๐ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐ก๐ ๐ ๐ฉ๐๐๐ฉ, ๐๐ค๐ฃ'๐ฉ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช. ๐ ๐๐ข ๐ช๐ฃ๐๐๐ง๐ฌ๐๐๐๐๐ฉ ๐๐ค๐ง ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช. ๐ผ๐ก๐ก ๐๐ค๐ง ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ฃ๐ค๐ฉ๐๐๐ฃ๐ ๐๐ค๐ง ๐ข๐. ๐๐ค๐ฉ๐๐๐ฃ๐ ๐๐ช๐ฉ 500 ๐๐๐ก๐ค๐ง๐๐๐จ ๐ ๐๐๐ฎ, ๐จ๐ค๐ข๐๐ฉ๐๐ข๐๐จ ๐ก๐๐จ๐จ.
๐๐๐ก๐ก ๐ ๐ฌ๐๐ฃ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐ฉ๐ค ๐ฉ๐๐ก๐ก ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐ฉ๐๐๐ฉ ๐ ๐๐ค๐ช๐ฃ๐ ๐จ๐ค๐๐ข๐ฉ๐๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ค๐ช๐ฉ. ๐ ๐๐๐ฉ๐ช๐๐ก๐ก๐ฎ ๐ก๐ ๐ ๐๐ค๐ค๐. ๐ ๐ก๐ ๐ ๐๐ฉ ๐ ๐ก๐ค๐ฉ. ๐๐ค๐ช ๐ข๐ ๐ ๐๐ฉ ๐๐๐ง๐ ๐๐ค๐ง ๐ข๐ ๐ฉ๐ค ๐๐ฃ๐๐ค๐ฎ ๐๐ค๐ค๐, ๐๐ช๐ฉ ๐ ๐ง๐๐๐ก๐ก๐ฎ ๐ง๐๐๐ก๐ก๐ฎ ๐ก๐ ๐ ๐๐ฉ. ๐๐ฉ ๐ฉ๐๐จ๐ฉ๐๐จ ๐๐ค๐ค๐ ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐๐ฉ ๐ข๐ ๐๐จ ๐ข๐ ๐๐๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ฎ. ๐๐ฉ ๐๐๐ซ๐๐จ ๐ข๐ ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐จ๐ฉ๐ง๐๐ฃ๐๐ฉ๐ ๐ฉ๐ค ๐๐ค ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐ฉ๐๐๐ฃ๐๐จ ๐ ๐ก๐ค๐ซ๐.
๐๐ค ๐๐ค๐ค๐๐๐ฎ๐, ๐๐ค๐ช๐ฃ๐ฉ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐๐๐ก๐ค๐ง๐๐๐จ. ๐'๐ข ๐จ๐ช๐ง๐ ๐'๐ก๐ก ๐จ๐๐ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐๐๐๐๐ฃ, ๐ข๐๐ฎ๐๐ ๐ฉ๐ค๐ข๐ค๐ง๐ง๐ค๐ฌ, ๐ข๐๐ฎ๐๐ ๐๐ฃ ๐ ๐ฎ๐๐๐ง. ๐ ๐ช๐จ๐ฉ ๐ฃ๐ค๐ฌ ๐ฉ๐๐๐ฉ ๐๐ฎ ๐ฉ๐๐๐ฃ, ๐ ๐ฌ๐๐ก๐ก ๐๐ ๐ ๐ก๐๐ฉ๐ฉ๐ก๐ ๐จ๐ฉ๐ง๐ค๐ฃ๐๐๐ง. ๐'๐ก๐ก ๐๐๐ฅ ๐๐๐ฉ๐ฉ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐จ๐ฉ๐ง๐ค๐ฃ๐๐๐ง ๐๐ซ๐๐ง๐ฎ ๐ฉ๐๐ข๐ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐๐ค๐ข๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ช๐ฃ๐ฉ๐๐ก ๐ ๐๐ค๐ฃ'๐ฉ ๐จ๐๐ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐๐ฃ๐ฎ๐ข๐ค๐ง๐.
๐๐๐๐๐๐ฃ๐๐๐ช,
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i really love this idea!!
Dear ED,
you really have messed me up in the head. truly, you've ruined so much for me. the lies you tell me are getting so tiring. you've taken so much from me. i no longer am able to eat with my friends. i barely fit in any of my favorite clothes. every reflection i look into i see ugly. everything is so ugly now. you've made me dull. my legs shake when i bend down. my hands never stop shaking. my hair is falling out every where. more random bruises are starting to appear. you did this to me. i would've turned out alright if you didn't screw me over like this. i ask myself all the time, "why me?" and i still can't seem to figure out. all i do is think of you, but i hate you.
my life would be so different without you. i'd love life. i'd love food. i'd love myself. my friends wouldn't be so worried. i wouldn't have to worry about facing my parents. i would have my whole self back again. i'm such a shell right now. don't you see? you did this to me. it's not my fault, but it feels like it is. i wish i could get better, but you are relentless. fuck you.
one day i'll make it. i'll get better. this experience will change me. it'll prove to myself that i am stronger than i thought. but right now this experience is killing me. i hope you let up. i really hope that you loosen your grip on me. i would do anything to live life like i did before you. i hope you leave soon, but until then, fuck you.
sincerely,
someone so tired of your shit
This is me writing to myself.. I don't know how it works.. So lets begin see i know right now you're not doing good from morning anxiety to randomly crying in bathroom.. Waiting for clock to tick 7 pm so you could just go out and be alone.. Cry.. No will to eat... With 0 progress in your work life... Those haunting memories attacking randomly whenever they want... I know this letter has no flow.. But this is me writing whatever is happening with no filter.... This is your bad phase it will pass... It will scar you for life but it will pass m....it always has. You'll get over it....
@๐๐ก๐๐จ๐ - ๐๐๐ค๐จ๐ ๐๐ง๐ ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐๐ฎ ๐ฌ๐ค๐ง๐๐จ: ๐๐ฉ'๐ก๐ก ๐ฅ๐๐จ๐จ. ๐ผ๐ก๐ก ๐๐๐๐ก๐๐ฃ๐๐จ ๐๐ง๐ ๐๐ช๐จ๐ฉ ๐๐จ ๐ฉ๐๐ข๐ฅ๐ค๐ง๐๐ง๐ฎ ๐๐จ ๐ฉ๐๐๐ฎ ๐๐ง๐ ๐ซ๐๐ก๐๐! ๐๐๐๐ฃ ๐จ ๐๐ค๐ง ๐ฅ๐๐ง๐ฉ๐๐๐๐ฅ๐๐ฉ๐๐ฃ๐ :)