I don’t know what’s going on

I have been doing the same trying not to to

Hey y'all. I think i can provide some insight. It seems you are struggling with an eating disorder. Throwing up after eating is considered bulimia. It's actually very common in eating disorders to see this bingeing, restricting, and purging (throwing up) behaviors. Body dysmorphic disorder is a disorder where you focus on a flaw that seems huge to yourself but is minor or not seen by others. I suffered from this a lot in the beginning of my eating disorder. I boarded my full-length mirror so i can't see my full body. It seems to help a lot. There are also books on eating disorder such as "Life without Ed" (Ed is what we call our Eating Disorder). It can be helpful to see a DBT therapist and/or a dietician, and, if you find that you are bingeing and purging, seeing a doctor that specializes in bulimia/eating disorders. If you need an ear, we're here to listen! ♥️